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2009-03-16T01:58:00.006+08:00

well well well .. A levels are finally over ! and i'm glad to say that i've conquered it ! scored A for chem and maths B for bio and econs and E for gp ): .. actualli i was realli sad over my bio .. but can anione understand how i felt ? ): having put in so much effort in a subject that i've started to doubt whether i realli have the most interest in .. i still din manage to get my first A for bio in big exams .. O levels was liddat and now history repeated itself .. i dunno why but i juz cant do it for bio .. so is life science really a route for me to clinch onto .. i wonder .. time shall prove whether or rather where shld i belong ..

went for ntu n nus open hses the past two daes .. there are hell lots of courses for me to choose from but none of them realli interest me .. was tinking of doing aerospace engineering initially but aft toking to the guy at the booth it somehow makes me reconsider .. of cos the prob doesnt lie with the guy but myself .. i started to doubt my ability in this area .. well engineering neva came into my mind before .. not till i get to choose the courses .. and now for no reasons i started looking into engineering courses! aldoh physics has always been my most hatred subject .. den, second to aerospace i was tinking abt gng for chem n bio engine which is initially recommended by my sister .. aft toking to the guy at the chem engine booth i was quite interested to find out more actually .. just tt the idea of gng jurong to work everydae is horrendous haha ..

well other than engineering courses i always thgt of getting into science courses as well becos u can choose whether to do science or business aft u grad .. so for the science part i tink i will choose to do chemistry .. and i love organic chem! actualli the best thing abt science courses is tt we dont have to take alot of maths modules inside .. so it all revolves just ard science only ! =D but just one thing i hate most abt science is the lab part .. i hate doing labwork! aldoh i noe its unavoidable .. actualli if my result allows me to .. i will try to go for accountancy which is hot like mad .. if onli straight As ppl go for medicine or law hahaa .. well we shall noe soon whether luck is on my side .. hais but presentations are killers! i hate them ..

actually aft having said so much i realised i have no where to go .. sch of engineering contains my most hatred physics and maths .. sch of science contains my most hatred labwork .. sch of business contains my most hatred presentations and lastly, school of humanities n ss contains my most hatred GP! ohmygawd. can i just get into the university of life ? lols hais .. nothing is perfect in this world huh .. another 3-4 years of pain is on its way now .. i nid a painkiller ....

2008-09-05T04:00:00.003+08:00

life is realli a torture to me ... i seriously dunno why i am feeling this way .. realli hate myself for being born this way .. why am i so ugly! life is so unfair .. hais ... i hate living in tis world! actualli i realli dun mind leavin this world .. so tt i can be free from all troubles and tortures ....

2008-06-18T01:16:00.003+08:00

woohoo! i realise it has been long since i came here to pen down my thoughtss!! haha .. mani mani things happened! .. n i tink i am slowly putting down already! (: not so tong ku animore le .. ! perhaps i realli tink too much last time .. hmmm .. sometimes sit back relax and stone is not a bad idea huh ! lols .. i tink i'm realli trying very very hard (: .. aldoh everything may change and not be the same animore .. i still hope to get the best out of the .. ? haha .. this is the first time i felt so relax blogging about this incident .. i realli hope tt this wont bother me animore .. becos the thought of it realli makes me feels like dying .. everytime when i think of all these during a meal or sth i will STR away lose my appetite! n i mean STR AWAY . tts how serious it can be! omg .. no wonder i always dun feel like eating nowadaes .. but i forced myself to! n i tink i'm getting fatter omg .. zzz i realli tink i shld exercise more ! oops .. hais if i say this out people will confirm suan me sae u so skinny where got fat! if u fat den i how .. zzz but seriously i tink i'm growing fatter .. but nobody can understand me! ): onli myself! well well , it's beta than nobody at all .. haha .. aniwae after doing much reflections i dunno is because E looks like M tts why i so worked up sometimes or because i realli felt replaced thats why! haha .. i'm gng crazy i tink .. n ya i realli realli do like him! ahhh ~ but haiss .. what is love without being loved! i'm still waiting for a chance ... will it ever comes ?? haisss ...

2008-05-04T03:14:00.002+08:00

woo~ just finished toking to my muimui on the phone .. hmmm .. heard something that kinda shocked me .. i realli dun understand why 'she' muz bring it up .. hais .. hmmm actualli mui ar .. keep holding hands, walking tgt and living in ur own worlds are realli quite abnormal for normal people haha .. so it is normal for people to suspect something! .. perhaps becos I ownself oso couldnt take it lols .. i will feel vry weird if u ask me to hold hand with my friends, even with people in my clique =x .. perhaps it's different ppl's perspective ba haha .. realli dun bare to sae out how i feel infront of u becos i scared it will make u even more sad ! so i've decided to blog my thoughts here .. where nobody can see ! (: hmmm .. seriously I did feel different when I noe u're so close to becca .. somehow or rather I dun feel very happy .. I felt that I'm not as important to you animore .. everytime when u tok to me u neva fail to mention her .. n from yr tone I noe that she has already overtook me .. perhaps i was too selfish to tink that we are still the closest friends .. i noe i'm wrong .. yr world doesnt seems to need my presence animore .. I admit that I realli dun wan to lose u as my closest friend .. but i'm afraid that I'm slowly letting go .. wateva it is .. I still wish u all the best in your JC life! I noe it must have been reali hard for u to face all the truth .. but I'm sure you can pull through it one dae .. with becca by yr side ? haha .. I noe that she is a good friend .. hope u all can be the bestest friend eva! (:

2008-04-27T23:11:00.002+08:00

Some things are hard to say out .. 心情突然变得好复杂好沉重……从未曾有过的感觉……好难受…受过伤的心还能够痊愈吗？好多的感觉，好多的感触，但都写不出来，我是怎么了？好不了解我自己，我不喜欢这样的我……

2008-02-24T19:22:00.003+08:00

I shall conquer mid-yr! and this shall be my promise to myself. Jiayou xinying! You can do it!

2008-02-24T15:33:00.003+08:00

i realli dunno what a person I am .. I'm approaching 18 but I don't really understand myself at all! i dun have directions in life .. i'm heading nowhere .. i'm juz walking and walking and walking .. to the endless end .. will someone come out inbetween some dae and lead me towards a different path? I wonder ..

2008-02-24T15:31:00.001+08:00

i totally hate maths to the core!! actualli not realli hate .. but i juz couldnt score well in maths!! can anione help me ?? HAISSSS ... troubleddd .

2008-01-03T23:14:00.000+08:00

why ! I did it all becos i meant well .. but why ?? i really feel like crying when i noe that she is angry .. mayb just a wrong method to show that i realli care ...

2007-12-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

I SHALL BE A HAPPY PERSON FROM NOW ON !!!!! ((((:

2007-10-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

FUCKING IRRITATED . ALDOH U'RE MY MOTHER BUT STOP THINKING THAT U'RE ALWAYS RITE ! GIVE ME A BREAK ! U ARE DENYING EVERYTHG U HAVE SAID AND DONE BEFORE ! now i noe why i dont feel like toking at home .. I DONT HAVE FREEDOM AT ALL .

2007-10-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

I HAD ENOUGH LER! Stop pushing everything to me! zzz .. that isnt the way to do a group projectt! Please even if u wanna fail dont push us down .. can u all please take it seriously??? hais .. I noe I'm not vry good at doing project but at least i tried my best .. have you all?? I doubt so ...

2007-10-18T22:10:00.001+08:00

I passed my promos but I'm not happy at all .. Seeing my friends all struggling so hard to get marks and over and over again get rejected by those heartless teachers .. i juz cant bring myself to be happy at all .. If any of my friends get retain then what's so happy to get promoted? ha! .. it is really saddening to hear all these .. Seeing one cry after another is not sth tt I can handle .. I want to promote tgt with my friends .. thats all I asked for .. and .. ii prayying real hardd . Can you hear me?

2007-10-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

OP is coming! I'm super scared! I'm just not an english person cant they juz let me go .. english sucks to the core .. everything in JC is HELL .. except for the people .. I'm so kinda irritated by my mum who always force me to eat things that I dun like .. hais .. i wan to live my life my way!! stop irritating me! I'm vry bad tempered at home .. SUPER .. I dont noe why sometimes I really feel vry guilty but i juz cldnt control ! that's me! ahhh .. I always argue and shout with my parents when i dont mean it! Sometimes i juz dont feel like replying or talking to my parents cos they juz ask lame questions! so i always answer so bu shuang-ly but i juz cant help it! I dont like ppl to interupt my life cos this is my life! aldoh they gave me this life but .. hais .. i juz dunno what is going on in me .. i'm not simple.

2007-10-18T21:46:00.000+08:00

woohoo! read someone's blog juz now and I suddenly realised i MISS PRSS SO MUCH SO MUCH! omg .. hais .. secondary n jc is like heaven and hell ..

2007-10-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

Tmr will be the day that decides whether I retain or promote.. ha! honestly, I am real scared .. I'm not confident at all .. Althought they sae that I will promote .. but will I ? ha! I dont have a good feeling .. hais ..

2007-10-15T21:36:00.000+08:00

Actually how many really noe that I really wished to be in MJ? Perhaps I'm the only one ...

2007-10-09T14:18:00.001+08:00

I really really hope to get promoted! Can aniwae grant me this siimple wiish?? hais .. I screwed up all my papers no matter how hard I tried .. I'm really tired .. Perhaps I din work hard enuff .. Perhaps I'm just not a study material .. I noe that promos are scary n I noe that i've the responsibility to pass it but somehow or rather something is stopping me .. why promos to someone can be as easy as ABC but that someone wasnt me? Exams exams exams .. Is that what I'm living for? I wonder .. I remember the most happy time when I took back my tests/exams was during sec 2 yr-end when I got back my science .. haha aldoh I onli scored an A2 for my science but at that time i was really happy! becoz that's the first time I got above C! Everytime after exams I always hope to get back my papers as soon as possible becoz I'm always so excited to noe the results but dunno since when I started to fear everytime I noe we are getting back our results .. I still rmb once I really cried out when I got back my A n E maths yr end even before I noe how much I get .. haas .. i rmb vry clearly dat I scored A2 for both that time .. but somehow I juz cldnt control ! I'm juz so scared .. Fear covered me till now .. my results are going from bad to worse .. I'm really really scared.

2007-10-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

I don't want to retain!!! NOOOO !!! hais .. Aldoh I kip saying I don't want to retain .. But I keep slacking!! Please .. give me the mood to study .. I'm failing myself .. I .. hais .. can anione save me?

2007-10-06T23:44:00.000+08:00

Heard from liyan that something has happened to Silver today.. Muz be that stupid Darryl .. hais i'm super worried for her now ..

That's what silver's said to Liyan..

Silver - 慢慢的。。。爱可以。。。 says:
i'm very sad .
Silver - 慢慢的。。。爱可以。。。 says:
really very sad .
【Li n <3 Lester】好期待11月的到来因为多40天我就能放松自己去度假了耶！ | JIEN = = LOVE ((: says:
wad happen
Silver - 慢慢的。。。爱可以。。。 says:
我不想再哭了。。。。
Silver - 慢慢的。。。爱可以。。。 says:
真的不想再哭了。。

hais .. everytime if Silver liddat means she's really hurt .. Silver, please tell me how can I help you.. ahhh .. seeing you liddat hurts me ..

不想再看到你哭了……你一定要振作起来知道吗……看到你这样，我真的好心痛……你了解吗？唉……

2007-05-29T17:47:00.000+08:00

Maybe this is how god wants me to live my life ... hais why muz my memorable sec sch life turns out this way in the end? Cant I have a happy ending? hais .. I regretted .

2006-06-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

woohoo ! I come to blogg again wor ! (= So guai so guai ! (hmm .. special words must be sae by special ppl den got special meaning ! =X wahahas)

Ok .. like wat i said ytd .. todae EARLY IN THE MORNING .. Stephpoh xiesiewbor and I went for the english seminar with is held at the singapore power autority tower or sth liddat at somerset .. imagine how EARLY must we wake up -.- The seminar starts at 8.30 .. Oh btw .. I onli slept for one hour SO TIRED !! zZZzz ..

The seminar was SO DAMN BORING pls .. I realli FALL ASLEEP for your info .. zzZz .. Dun even noe wat the speaker is toking abt .. somemore he had tis kinda WEIRD accent dat nobody understands wat he was trying to sae -.- ... (Luckily I haven finish using aherm de li liang .. that manage to pull me through the one n a half hour ! omg =X) FORTUNATELY there was a break in between the session .. and we decided to sneak away =X .. haas .. so we went to burger king to slack .. I slept for awhile I guess coz I was realli tired .. Den we went to shop for alot of things at orchard road .. Not onli did we stop there ... We went on to shop at Bugis too .. ha ! I was half dead -.- haas .. Despite that .. We still went on to play bball at jess's hse .. Zzz .. I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO HOME AND SLEEP ISNT IT ! hais .. no bu GUAI ! Sorry mei ! =X

Alot of incidents happen becoz of me when we were playing bball ! Oh gosh ! I hit jess's nose with my arms accidentally ! SORRY JESS MEI ! Ok .. that isnt the worse ... when we continued our match .. I indirectly caused mummy to sprain her leg !! omg !! SO SORRY MUMMY !! Muz go see doctor kks !! sorry !! .. Ok .. den still nvm .. when we had our second match .. I accidentally threw the ball rite into baohui's face ! Omg ! haas .. They said that her nose became crooked ! omg .. lols .. I'm so sorry xiaobao ! haas .. Ok .. If tanmeihui read until here .. she sure have LOTZZ to comment =X wahahas ! I noe I vry violent ok ! haas .. but i din mean to ! ~ bleahss ~

By the wae, my world cup is coming in 25 mins time ! hees .. todae like other daes have three matches .. that is ecuador vs costa rica .. ENGLAND vs trinidad&tobago .. sweden vs paraguay .. woohoo ! hope england wont let us down this time ! gogogo ! ~ =X aniwae ... here are the updates of the results from ytd's matches ...

Those results that are highlighted in BOLD are the updated ones ...

Grp A
Germany - 6 pts
Ecuador - 3 pts
Poland - 0 pt
Costa Rica - 0 pt

Grp B
England - 3 pts
Sweden - 1 pt
Trinidad & Tobago - 1 pt
Paraguay - 0 pt

Grp C
Argentina - 3 pts
Holland - 3 pts
Ivory Coast - 0 pt
Serbia & Montenegro - 0 pt

Grp D
Mexico - 3 pts
Portugal - 3 pts
Angola - 0 pt
Iran - 0 pt

Grp E
Czech - 3 pts
Italy - 3 pts
USA - 0 pt
Ghana - 0 pt

Grp F
Brazil - 3 pts
Australia - 3 pts
Croatia - 0 pt
Japan - 0 pt

Grp G
Korea - 3 pts
France - 1 pt
Switzerland - 1 pt
Costa Rica - 0 pt

Grp H
Spain - 3 pts
Tunisia - 1 pt
Saudi Arabia - 1 pt
Ukarine - 0 pt

yeahh ! thats about all .. hmm .. anywae just wanna sae that .. the journey of chasing every world cup matches wont be so interesting without someone ! =X THANKS !!! You noe who you are .. hurhur .. wahahas ! ... Loveya ! ~

2006-05-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes in life .. we juz cant control the things we want .. Sometimes I really hope that I'm alonee .. Perhaps my life wld not be so miserable .. haiss .

2006-05-03T18:28:00.000+08:00

HAIZ ... super stress up .. Can anione spare me from all these ? .. Really hope that i'm dead if i have the courage to .. I realli dont feel like living animoree .. living in a world that all i can see was to study has no meaning at all .. Pleasee can anione take me away peacefully ? Even if i dun go now .. i'll still die of stress eventually .. give mee a break .. anione ?

2006-04-06T21:13:00.000+08:00

hais .. this few daes , i'm freaking lack of sleep . So tired sia .. keep dozing off in class .. luckily tcher din see it .. *yawnss* .. currently involve in speech dae rehearsals and stuffs n so din manage to sleep well .. went to watch choir concert a couple of daes ago .. that was marvellous mann ! our school choir simply rocks the concert upside-down . Congrats to them sia .. regret not joining choir ha ! Aniwae .. speech dae will be the last performance for us who are graduating this year .. hais .. though i dont like the long and tiring practices .. i'll still miss CO mann ! CO really rocks my world . LiuQin too ! I'll miss my section sia ! Xiao mei meis arhh muz work hard ok ! dont let us down wor .. ahhh . the feeling of separating frm one another is not good ! yes it isnt . hais . Time realli flies .. I've actualli been in CO for a period of four years ! the feeling was like I juz join yesterdae .. hmm .. CO is really a vry nice and united CCA . We went through alot of xi nu ai le tgt .. n make alot of friends .. I tink gng thru tis long journey is not easy .. but the memories will still stay on no matter what .. CO , u simply rocks !

hais .. was quite sadd n disappointed when I noe one tcher din even pay attention to me .. perhaps dont even noe my name .. She remembered everyone except for mee .. hais .. but I cant be bothered anywae .. hais ..

2006-04-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

happie april fool's dae ! Neva get fooled by anione todae ( = coz i din went out ! wahahas . Frm todae onwards I tink I wont feel like gng to plae bball animore .. hais .. I realli miss the past .. Like wat meihui sae , mayb i will also use the time we plae bball to do CE .. I beta stop now before it made me lost interest in it .. hope happy memories stay on .. But no matter what happens .. Basketball is still part of my life , and i still live for it .

2006-03-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

woohoo ! ytd was such a fun dae ! we went to play bball finally !!!! lols .. it has been long since we play until so TONG KUAI liaos . kees . So todae my whole body is like breaking into two ! so tired ! haas . Ytd after bball i went to airport to meet pf n liyan to discuss abt some *important* matters ! haas .. and shun bian go see 'them' . Den go to viewing mall with mj to watch plane .. den me and pf kip doing stoopid things lols .. so funny .. den mj so moody .. MUZ smile lar . haiyoOoo . den went home at 11 plus 12 .. Todae we went town to shop for jess 's present and sth esle .. shopped frm 1 sth to 9 sth ! wah wah wah break record sia .. haas . went with tanmeihui xiebaohui kohhuijuan quekyuru chiangkongyong neoweiquan jinyang (dunno his surname) den we walk here walk there walk front walk back .. freaking tiring ! -.- btw we saw lijun there .. haas . she looks so funny . okok . tts abt all ..

2006-03-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

woohoo ! the second dae of the concert finalli ended as well ! we finalli can rest ler ! ^^ Todae concert to me was a success i guess ! kees . i'm no longer disappointed with myself ! BUT ! i still did sth stoopid todae !! I moved too much !! ahhh . dont move oso rong move oso rong ! ) = lols .. everyone told me i moved too much ! ahhhh . so paiseh lar .. but i guess is becoz those ard me neva moved at all so i seemed to be moving too much ... hmm .. shld be liddat .. but still vry paiseh sia .. ahhh haas . but perhaps its beta than ytd haas . Is dll ask us to move der btw ! lols . i vry guai der leh .. so i listened to her .. kees . Aniwae it was a SUPER tiring week . have not done any hmwks .. hais .. everyone chu le lian qin its still lian qin .. -.- hmm .. i guess i'll still miss CO after I step down aldoh i kip complaining abt the no. of practices we have a week n how much i hate it .. hais .. four years ler ! frm a dunno anythg der .. to performing .. to SYF ! it has been a tough but interesting journey for me .. I've learned alot from CO .. and i guess everyone do ? or rather i hope everyone do ( = Aldoh CO practices are tedious .. it can be quite fun too .. I'm surely gonna miss it mann ! My dear cute and innocent juniors muz jia you okae ! Nx yr's SYF 's gold with honours is waiting for u all ! Good luck and may god bless all of u ! ~ ^^ U all have been great .. continue to work hard okae ! GO GO GO .

2006-03-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

ahhh ! so disappointed with myself todae ! we kick off with a good start of xi ban ya ! and i thgt the concert wld be a success .. but it was not . xi ban ya was quite a success i can sae ! coz i neva press rong note ! haas .. but long deng was such a failure ! FAILURE ! it was horrible terrible vegetable ! As we were all too nervous , we din play well . haiss . but aniwae we played well for chang cheng i guess .. or at least not that bad .. there's some probb before the last piece .. song wo yi duo mei gui hua .. becoz dll dun understand wat the emcee is toking so the whole procedure was kinda ruined ! tt song shld be an encore piece but in the end it turns out to be like the last piece ! haas . Still nvm .. ME & TING did a vry stupid thing after everythg ended ! Coz meizhen sat down so everyone sat down but actualli we shld go down frm the stage liaos .. den ms ho n dll was standing behind the curtain asking us to stand up faster but nobody moves den i saw lehh faster ask ting to stand up oso den mayb the rest wld follow BUT THEY NEVA ! den onli me n ting stand up onli ! and all the audience was still in their seats .. coz everyone was like dunno whether to stand or not den onli me n ting stand up ! den we see nobody stand den faster sit back ! so paisehhh ! the whole audience was luffing can ! ahhh ! so stoopid . den after that ms ho kipp looking at us asking us to stand so i asked everyone to stand den i brought up my courage once again and pull ting to stand up with me first since we alr so 'clown' liaos ! muz as well .. haas .. den this time FINALLY they followed . phew ! den everyone was like luffing at us can ! alamak ! ~ TMR TMR TMR NO such thing will happen ! NO ! it cnt happen ! i wont let it happen ! nooo . haas . okok . SO TIRED now . my finger tips no skin liaos -.- ...

2006-03-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

ahhhh !! my fingerss ! so pain .. cant even type properly .. wth .. its swollen ! oh gosh .. all thanks to CO ! arr . Todae went for concert rehearsals at TECC .. just like wat we expect .. we get scolded agn haiss .. wateva .. i dun give a damn liaos .. hais .. i just pity my poor lil fingersss ... Btw sth happened during lunch tt makes me feel so guilty ! me ting and our liuqin juniors went to the hawker centre to have our lunch and me yufang janine n jingping all eat mee pok .. den janine n yufang dun dare to eat chilli so we bought two bowls with tomato w/o chilli one bowl with chilli and one bowl with tomato and chilli .. den yufang told me tt tis particular bowl was chilli one so i ate it .. den when i ate half wae .. i tasted ketchup !! den i thgt the stall owner neva hear properly so forget it i continue eating .. den yufang come back with her 'own' bowl of mee pok .. when we were eating half way she suddenly sae eh how come my one got chilli arh .. den we all stunned .. den realised the stall owner din give wrongly is we ate rongly ! den she ate until like so xin ku coz she pah la .. den only manage to eat half bowl .. ! i'm so sorry ! ..

2006-03-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

Went to visit my brother todae .. he went for an operation at changi hospital .. I think there's sth in his throat .. bought some ice cream for him .. den he had his lunch .. he cant eat properly and keep spitting out blood .. its quite heart aching to see that .. the nurse sae if tmr nutting happen as in no fever or wat .. he can be discharged lerr .. I had a flu todae so juz stayed at home for the rest of the dae to watch tv .. watched huan zhu gege 2 vcds .. n star idol plus the xing shan shan .. actualli for star idol i prefer leo to win .. Coz he acts beta than Bryan I tink .. I dont like Bryan .. I dont even think he is shuai at all .. onli he got a good figure thats all .. if u sae that leo is a sissy den Bryan is one too .. He dont really act the way he looks I guess ? hmm .. and i tink he has a boi boi look .. Aldoh i dun like both leo n bryan i still think that Leo shld win .. But aniwae who cares about star idol .. I prefer PSS'05 to everythg ! Silver rockss . Helped liyan smsed and called her ytd .. she seems so high .. haa .. Aniwae my concert is coming ...... "...tic-tac tic-tac yue lai yue jin yue lai yue jin..." wahahas . okok . Tmr have practice at 9 and i'm still here ! oh no .. eleen oso lor . notti gurl .. Debbie and CS kor sick ! .. alamak muz takkaire arhh .. dun be like me ..

2006-03-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

woohoo ! todae is another lonnggg and sian daee for mee ! hais . had CO practice again at TECC .. Todae we try zou tai-ing .. den kanna scolded again n again n again .. hais .. xi guan liaos .. expected .. who ask our section is DLL teach .. ming ku arhh ! Todae puiying they all vry bad lar .. dun let me drink bubble tea den i so pissed lar .. den i so angry i throw the card on the floor .. I know they wei le wo hao but i neva bring water mah wan me to thirst to death meh ! bleahh . After tt they bought one cup for me den i dun wanna drink .. so angryyyy lorr . But I still drank . hais ... xi ban ya change to white n black plus red ribbon liaos ! .. aldoh its more troublesome but .. no choice if wear syf one surely vry weird der .. den we will all like so STAND out from ruan zu ppl .. -.-

2006-03-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

todae went for chemistry lesson in the morning .. did titration .. it was kinda fun .. haas .. but mrs chua is not in a vry good mood .. After that went to KFC for lunch with steph .. saw debbie and sharyl there so we end up having lunch tgt .. haas .. Den we went back to school for a SHORT n is realli SHORT cocm meeting haas .. was told about the concert stuffs and things .. Den went to Eleen's house to hang ard haas .. since i've neva been to her new hse before .. kees . Then i used her msn acc to tok to others wahahas . so lamee . stayed there for dinner too .. simple but nicee ! ^^ thanksss ! Took a bus home .. from tecc there so FAR ! haas . okok lar actualli kees .. watched campus juz now .. abit disappointed with adriano's performance but he is still cuteee !! haas .

LIYAN went to sydney ytd lerr .. feel so weird when she's not ard ! miss her calling mee everytime when campus start .. now feel so empty .. aiyah ger i miss u larr ! haas . U muz be missing me too rite ! haas . hope u'll lead a GREAT life over there ! takkaire ok my fren ! ~ hope to see u soon !

2006-03-12T18:01:00.000+08:00

woohoo ! had CO frm 9-4 todae .. Its quite alrite juz that my fingers SUPER pain .. type oso cnt type properly .. haiss . Practiced XI BAN YA with ruan zu todae .. its better than i imagined . At least I can catch up . If not I 'll die BIG time ! Coz concert is just less than a week away !

Aniwae I tink that my drawing sucks . Arr . Stoopid ! bleahhhh .

2006-03-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

I'm a kid with no childhood ! wahahas . Todae we have CO from 11-9 ! n tt is ard 10 HOURS !! but the stoopid thg is we started our practice at two ! coz the instruments n tcher came as 12-1 plus ! THEY ARE LATE ! noooo .. is the driver forgot abt us ! -.- Aniwaee so we practiceeeee until 6 den went for dinnerrr . After dinner , we practice our own xiao zhu pieces .. den guan yue play FENG ! SO niceeee ! Den we started playing 'kiddy' gamess .. wahahas ! I'm crazy . So are they ! LOL . Its is a tiring but quite fun dae at TECC ! Tmr is another longg daeee for us . haiss . I FORGOT HOW TO PLAY XI BAN YA LIAOS ! helppp meeee ! ....................

2006-03-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

I suddenly realised I got phobia on toking to jessica . Her mood is super duper scary . At this moment can smile n talk nicely to u .. the other moment can be pissed n show u attitude . Aniwae soccer is fun ! haas . but basketball still rockss moreeee .

090306 - A dae I was fooled .

2006-03-07T02:21:00.000+08:00

I still think tt blog shld have some privacy ... dont u tink so ? hmmm ...

2006-03-07T02:17:00.000+08:00

I completed the sixth puzzle of SUDOKU ! coolz ~ thanks Silver ! ^^

2006-03-04T18:15:00.000+08:00

i'm freaking sick . Din went to the TECC performance todae . Good luck guys ! Ruan rockss ! (= Good luck to the choir members too ! ^^I've been sleeping for the past dunno how many hours .. sleep wake up sleep wake up . test temperature . walk walk go back sleep agn . Now I finalli have a little strength to blogg . thanks KEYANG for the sms haaas . Since I'm free now i've decided to blog to make up for the past few daes .

Lets start from wednesday . I've my oral after school , i din manage to score quite well becoz i was having a bad soar throat and the tcher kip luffing den start to trigger my laugh gland as well . I've many related stuffs to add on but my mouth juz dun dare to sae it out . In the end I din darn badly for picture n conversation . After oral , I went home to change and went town to meet peifen , liyan , calvin n SANDRA ! They were at PS . Den we went for a walk ard n went to mosburger to find waiyin , jean , xinyi , sheena and RUTH ! they went celebrating jean's n xinyi's bday . We bought a cake for the both of them at breadtalk den we went to take neoprints at action city . After taking neoprints , ruth went off first and the rest of us went to cene to take agn .. It was kinda fun ! Sandra simply rocks ! ~ Den me n liyan go off first to meet someone . Actualli we are gng home der budden we see the time its like quite late ler and we hab alr board the cab so we went eslewhere instead . Miss Sandra ~~ Den after that we went to the star idol result show tgt .. Went home with liyan and mj .

3/3/06 is a BIG dae for us ! Its not onli LmG's 4th anniversary .. SILVER oso agreed to go out with us for lunch todae ! After I release from school , I went to meet liyan at city hall mrt station as we are heading for marina square . We walk ard first while waiting for silver n thot tt she will be working at the spectacle hut there so she meeting us there we din see her . Then suddenly , Silver called liyan and said that she had reached n was at the carpark . Actualli we wanted to go and find her but she sae she come and find us . We were standing at the third floor n we were like so damn highh . Silver called again n said tt she was in the middle .. we were like huh ? den did alot of stoopid acts ! -.- yuan lai she alr saw us liaos . Her mood was so good that dae ! . We went to walk ard with her first while waiting for pf to arrive . Den we walked one big rnd and decided to find somewhere to eat sth . We went to this chinese restaurant and eat . Alot of funny thgs happen and we were like kip laughing and laughing until the waitress tell me kip luffing wont full one faster eat LOL ! n then so paiseh we started luffing agn .. n SILVER was like so damn chio n cute ! she kip telling us abt herself n some other thgs (confidential) haas . She is so damn lame oso ! haas . bu kui shi LmG der ! haas . First time i see her luff so much ! SILVER u simply rocksss ! The way she tok oso damn funny . haaas . so we were like luffing all the wae . Feel quite pressurise walking beside her lol . But aniwae we enjoyed ourselves vry much ! n we went to places and took photos den Silver went to meet her fren at the coffee club while we went PS agn to meet mj . Actualli din wanna go der . but no choice acc liyan go . After we meet mj we went to TM times to buy the SUDOKU book . becoz of some reasons he he he . Todae is a vry meaningful dae for all of us here ! Happy 4th anniversary LmG ! (=

To liyan : hey so touched to read yr blogg ! kees . thanks ! yess we will be friends foreva no matter wat ! ^^ hais I realli dun bare to see u leave .. But aniwae hope u 'll do well over there ! n hope to see u back on singapore on the 18th of march n 2nd of june ! Do come back and visit us once in a while ok ? (: U've been a great friend all these while ! Realli missed those daes when we chased pss tgt ! Its tiring yet meaningful ! ^^ U go gurl ! ~

SILVER aka LAO DA simply rocks my world upside down ! (: Its has been long since I luff like nobody's problem . wahahas . Thanks alot ! really .

Miss her so muchh . Miss BBALL too ! ~

2006-03-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

what if i just suddenly vanish one dae .. ? Isnt tt good ! haiss .

2006-03-02T00:18:00.000+08:00

My mind is full of mani different thots and feelings now . All the emotions came crashing into me . (to jess) I feel like blogging . yes i realli do . (perhaps u are the onli one tt reads my blog) . went to result show juz now .. aldoh alicia was out , i thot of euu . The feeling was not good either .

Looking at euu frm where i was sitting , u realli seems like a 'goddess' to me ? Someone tt i wld realli wanna respect n idolise . Someone who are just so near but yet so far . I cnt describe tt feeling . Its juz so different frm the normal euu . The euu on stage .. the euu on tv .. the euu there .. the euu i idolize n the euu i've always respect was so unreplacable . Todae , It was tt feeling tt came back to me agn . Perhaps I'll not experience tt moment animore .. becoz i know disappointment will soon come not long after . I've to admit that I dun realli understand euu or even not at all . But do I've the chance to ? i doubt so . I wan the euu who would brightens up my lifee n the one whom wld give me the motivation to move on , to hang on for wateva it takes . I'm prepared to give my fullest to euu but where are euu ? I'm lost searching for euu .

to ... (please dont ask me who tis person is) : I was wondering .. should i trust euu ? I would like to but how ? How u expect me to trust euu from the wae u acted ? One word tells it all - u're FAKE . I cnt believe myself either but i've enuff of all these .. used to thot tt u are someone tt i can really rely on .. someone i can count on .. but frm todae onwards , i doubt so .

Basketball will once agn become part of my life . Only thg that has the power to make me forget everythg . Basketball , u rocks .

Jessica , stay happy ok ? I love you , my dear mei . (=
-- from the bottom of my heart .

...... : -hope to see U tmr-
please dont give us empty hopes n promises AGAIN .

2006-02-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

i fall in love with singing nowadays ! n there's SOOO many thgs dat has happened this few daes .. so .. I'm really really lazy to blogg . sorry .

2006-02-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

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2006-02-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

I loveee all my friendssss ! ... (:

2006-02-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

can i post my thoughts and feelings here ? isnt blogs for ppl to jot down their thoughts and feelings ? But i dont tink i can write it here ... hais .. if onli i can ...

2006-01-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

"baby baby love can be so beautiful ... "

ahhh ! this song is nice ! recently i fall in love with it ! wahahs ! love can be so beautiful huh ... haas ! adriano's voice simply rocks .. omgomgomg ... hais .. sheena n sherm is out .. even if revive oso one have the chance to get back .. is heaven playing a fool on us ! arrr ! so sadd .. the judges are so stoopid can damn i mean .. onli the peter noes about music can .. the rest can go home zZz liaos lor .. arr ! dont sae liaos yue sae yue #%!@^$@%! .

ok from 1/1 till now .. i have done ALOT of things n i mean ALOT .. so .. i dont really rmb ALL but ABIT onli .. the MOST memorable one is ... SHE ! omg ! they came to singapore !! i've actualli played games and shook hands with them ! can u believe it ! i cant actualli ! ahh ! hebe ! ella ! selina ! i miss them arr ! ok other than that .. I saw SILVER too ! at the expo cny autograph and SP open hse .. both times were great ! ya to me is 'of course silver ma' ! haas ! BUT ! i din see my mianjie lar ! sad case ! miss her so much ! arr ! hmm .. and wat .. oh ya the polys open hse ! went to TP n SP .. seen alot learn alot n asked alot .. wahhas .. courses i interested in .. 1) Optometrist in SP . Cut-off pt =9 (1 eng 1 maths 1 sci + 2 best subjects) . Ard 40-50 students a year . 9 staffs . Quote from silver : It is a very intensive course . need to learn alot n its quite tough in year 3 . 2) Health sciences in NYP . Only school that offers . Learn about pharmacist and stuffs . 3) Media communication in TP . Seen the DJ news studio working areas .. quite cool .. 4) ... not yet decided . For choices in JCs . 1) SAJC . Cut off pt = 9 . Reasons : Uniform and school . 2) MJC . cut off pt = 13? Reasons : Near my hse . uniform . new sch . 3)TPJC . Cut off pt = 14-16? Reasons : Even nearer my hse . ... lazi to type liaos ..

Wah ! wat am i doing here at this time ! tsk ! I should be in my dreamland liao ! bb !

2006-01-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

Todae is the first dae of this NEW beginning -2006. Let me do a recap of what i've done in the year 2005. It has been a GREAT year for me n so.. i'll definitely miss it. I learnt alot n experienced alot. I got to meet ALL of my favourite idols like... S.H.E, Silver, Mianjie, Junyang & Albert. All at once in the year 2005. I oso learnt alot through real life experiences in mediacorp. I learnt wats the meaning of true friends and learnt to treasure things that i dont used to in the past. From mcs I learnt abt different kinds of ppl in this world. Having been through all these experiences, I've learnt to see things from different perspectives. I've made alot of friends too, esp LmG. U guys have been great. Thanks for accompanying me through all the difficult times. Thanks for letting me know that i'm actualli not alone all these while. Aldoh we only know each other for a short period of time, I experienced wat we call true friendships with all of euu. During this period, i went through alot of ups n downs, but i've never regret. Life have always been happy-go-lucky for me. I dont have any worries about almost everythg. Everyone thgt that i'm born in a vry fortunate family, I thgt the same too. But I was wrong. I'm actually not. Yes, it's a fact that all my family dote on me alot perhaps becoz i'm the youngest. But between my family members, this is not the case. Problem surfaced -long time ago. Actualli I knew it all along, but what can i do? Till the day my mother finally talk to me about all these and i finally realised how serious the problem is. From that point of time, I know tt I cant be so simple minded anymore. I nid to grow up. I've to share n go through the problem together with my family but not to live alone in my own world. I know I've not been a good daughter nor a good sister. I would like to thank all my family members for their tolerance all these years. Thanks dad.. for tolerating me & all the jokes. Sorry for showing you attitude n making u do things for me in the past. Thanks mum.. for all that u've done for this family all these years. I know i've been showing u attitude whenever i dont get wat i wan. I'm sorry. Thanks kor... I know tt you would always leave the best for me no matter what. I realli appreciate all that. n lastly, thanks jie! Thanks for giving me whateva i wan and bringing me out in the past. Thanks all of euu for giving me such a wonderful family! (at least to me, it is wonderful!) I love all of you!

Not only my family, my friends as well. Keyang - Dont be so bhb ler kks. Thanks for all yr craps n craziness that cheer me up all these years! Meihui - Kick away yr attitude habit kks. Thanks for yr care & concern these two years! Stephanie - Dont act cool ler kks, coz you're cute. Thanks for helping me n accompanying me for the past two years! Winnie - Dont get any deeper ler kks. Thanks for being a good listener n being there for me whenever i nid someone! Jessica - Dont be so siao ler kks. I realli cant stand u sometimes. Thanks for trusting me! Huijuan - Thanks for being a great friend! Baohui - Dont be so crazy ler kks. Thanks for all yr craps! Eleen - Dont be so scary ler kks. You've been a great jie/mei! Ruizhen - Dont like 5566 too much ler kks. Thanks for making such a great partner in class! HuiLin, Cheryl, Esther, Angelia, Rena - Thanks for being such great seniors to mee these few years! Chun Siang - Dont angry ler kks. Thanks for all the help that u've given me all these while! To all the rest of my friends - THANKS!

Thanks for all the memories u all have given me for the past 15 years of my life. Be it good or bad, they have always been great. They became a part of me n losing them equals to losing a part of me. So no matter what, they are always rmbed!..

i'll strive hard for who i exist for...

Thank you! all my friends...

2005-12-28T02:40:00.000+08:00

ii havee decided to blogg after much consideration. I've sth to sae to all my friends out there. I'm sorry if i've neglected any of euu. Especially to those basketball peeps. I know I always fails to turn up for all kinds of reasons.. esp for PSS n SI. Sometimes i oso dun understand myself. Pls dont think tt i treat them more impt than euu all. Aldoh i support them like crazy? perhaps to u all, i am? But i neva ever forget all of euu. I promise u all i wld try my best to go everytime kks. I oso dunno wat has got into me.. i used to tink tt chasing idols are soo damn stoopid.. n yet i'm doing it now -.- But i realise chasing idol is not as stoopid though.. aldoh u may get tired or wat, but the moment u see yr idol u will forget abt everythg! perhaps it will make me feel tt everythg is worth it ba. But now when i came to think of it.. I tink tt its kinda stoopid sumtimes.. I noe i'm contradicting myself.. But sometimes i realli hate myself for being so committed to somebody.. Coz once i am committed i will wu fa zi ba -.- den i will tend to neglect all those who are around me! hais. sometimes my life juz sux. I'm so irritated by myself sometimes. argghh. Aniwae, my purpose of this post is to tell everyone out there tt i wld not forget all of euu no matter what! I'm trying vry hard to let go noww... I wans back the old me living my old life! ... GOD, pls help me!.....

2005-12-28T02:30:00.000+08:00

i wants back my old life... can i? ...

2005-12-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEYANG!!!

happie bdae to euu..
happie bdae to euu...
happie bdae to yang yang....
happie bdae to euu....

wow! toucheed ma? I noe u SUPER touched rite? haas. 'Bu zhi bu jue noe euu for 8 years ler wor..Hmmm.. I wld like to take tis oppunities to thank you for being such a GREAT fren for these past eight years...U realli bring joy n luffters to my life...Perhaps sumtyms I wld show u attitude or perhaps i have made u angry in aniwae, remember tt in my heart u have always been great! (: Thanks for tolerating me for 8 long yrs...Thanks for being there for me everytime i nid a shoulder to lean on...Thanks for helping me tk things whenever i'm not feeling well...
Thanks for helping me ask for anythg whenever i dun dare to...All these small little things u've done for me in these past 8 yrs will always be kept in my heart... n neva will i forget...
For these 8 years.. i've been happie.. i've been sad....But i've neva ever regret to have euu as my friend...This friendship between us will continue to the dae of my last breath..U made me experience a true friendship.. a friendship tt i've confidence tt it will last foreva.. a friendship tt will neva be forgotten..I met u as a stranger... knoe u as a classmate... love u as a friend...I'm vry grateful to GOD dat for these 8 yrs, we've neva ever quarrel.. not at all..No matter how big the prob is, the nx dae will always be fine..I see u changed from a quiet young girl to wat u are todae...I appreciate this process n thank GOD for giving me a chance to experience it..Fate brought us together... Friendship bond us together... GOD blessed us tgt...U are realli a sweet n friendly girl...It's realli my pleasure to be friend with euu..What i've said realli come from the bottom of my heart...Sorry if i've not been a good friend to euu...But i promised to be one.. (: hope u wld giv me the chance to...I love yr smile.. it brightens up my dae!~ Dont eva cry ler kks.
Takkaire my dear friend!~ Friends foreva~

xInxIn.

2005-12-10T21:01:00.000+08:00

woohoo! Todae was fun!~ Fun indeed huh! haas. Woke up at 12 tis afternoon when i planned to wake up at 11! Was dreaming of mianjie when liyan's call woke me up!! LOL. If she din call i tink i'm gonna slp foreva~ LOL. Went to Outram mrt to meet Calvin Peifen n Xinyuan for Sandra's bday party! We walked a short distance be4 we reach... A bunch of ppl ard 7? was alr there! coolz. So we went there played pool (they plae I watch) wahahas. den sing songs.. while waiting for the main lead to come.. and tt was SANDRA! (: She came at ard 3 sth n sang.. We sit ard tgt infront of the tv to hear her sing... Den here comes siow wei! one of the star idol contestants.. n they both sang tgt... Then all of us took turns to sing.. n fool ard.. Den Chanel n Sugie came! They joined in the fun.. Then suddenly black out! short circuit? lols. shld be. Den the atmosphere was juz nice for a ghost story.. The story teller was none other than our Chanel Pang! She started saying a ghost story abt mcs... n goes on n on.. until the most exciting part!... the lights went on agn! LOL. den in came the bday cake... den we sang bday song take lots of photos... den half wae thru, the lights went off agn.. -.- so our story teller miss pang was asked to continue the story den she continued... After the lights went on, we continue singing ate the cake take photos with them... den chanel went to plae pool followed by sugie.. they were so cute i can sae! Den we sat tgt agn to hear them sing n chanel was still as lame as eva.. LOL. At 4 sth, chanel n sugie went off first.. den we have tis little quiz.. There were two sandra's board wif her signature n one file she bought to be given away!.. the first qn went like tis... wat song did sandra sing at the competition.. den the fastest to raise their hand get to ans.. den me n a gurl raised our hands tgt.. same timing for thrice! -.- so in the end we played scissor paper stone.. n i won! omg. perhaps tt was the first time i actualli won? lols.. den so i got to ans which is wang ri qing.. den got to choose one of the boards n took pic with sandra... den here comes the 2nd qn.. wat colour did sandra wore on tt dae of the competition.. but shock to sae, onli i noe the ans -.- so i raised my hand.. lols. budden they sae give other a chance but no one noes lols. den they asked wat earring sandra wear? but nobody noes even myself.. den they sae how abt wat colour is her pants tt dae? N onli i noe the ans -.- LOL. Den i told them i helped my fren der.. den i told pf the ans den she go n ans. ding dong! it was correct! it was green top n white bottom! so pf took another board n take picture with sandra wahahas. I realised i was so smart. -.- haas. Den the third qn is how old is Sandra? tis time i dunno the ans but alot of them noe haas.. den one gurl answered and got the file she bought. (: After the quiz we continue singing n playing n joking ard.. there was tis guy there whose voice omg. was SUPER! he's a future singer! He sae he gng taiwan nx month! Oh mann good luck to him! coz his voice realli rocks! He's quite cute too! (: woohoo! tt was abt all... den we went home at 7 sth gng to 8 (: thanks Sandra sugie chanel n siow wei n the rest of them for tis enjoyable party! (: it rocks.

2005-12-08T02:24:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! THE LAST FUNKIES RECORDINGS SIMPLY ROCKS TO THE CORE!!! that was the best recording i eva went!~ Its like so touching mann!! And Silver they all sang bu xiang zhang da!! omg omg!! ITS LIKE THEY ALL ARE SO SAD!!! Coz it is the last recordings ler!! We may not see some of them again!! Todae they recorded two episodes one for themselves n one for christmas.. They talked abt their lives n everythg!! It's so saddening!! BUT! Todae we were real HIGHHH!!! Coz they sang alot of songs!! Esp when they singing christmas songs.. the whole row was like omg! high till siao!! Can see that Silver cheered up abit too!!! (: She sae we are vry gd! kees.. So happie!! Omg n todae their NGs broke record! So they sing over n over agn.. n is the full song!! Then we listen over n over agn!! Shuang daooo~~ Budden when they singing the bu xiang zhang da.. its like the LYRICS n TEMPO is all RONG!! we told the staff dat the lyrics one part is rong n they bochap us lor.. n its like the rong part is SILVER sing der lorr!!! arrgghhh. Its an insult to S.H.E songs lor.. budden for them is realli quite pro ler.. coz tis song is new to everyone! n they are not familiar with the lyrics at all! ... But they succeessfully sing out the whole song! Cheers for them!! (: Realli she bu de funkies sia... will miss all their singing on stage der.. esp those who may nt step on stage agn.. like william chanel.. etc.. hais.. hope some record company will realise their talents n sign contract with them!! Coz i realli realli will miss them... ALL OF THEM!!! ESP SILVER!!! Though she told us she still hav alot of shows, i will still miss her singing der!! She is so damn sweet todae.. love her to the core~ WE WONT FORGET U ALL DER!!! is a promise! is a deal! (;

2005-11-30T02:02:00.000+08:00

Confused. Hais.. Are u true? `perhaps...

2005-11-29T10:05:00.000+08:00

Let me recall bac to the SP concert that is held on the 25th n 26th of nov!!!! Coz it simply rocks like hell!~ Luckily i went! Coz no nid tickets at all!! For both daes i went there quite early.. ard 9-10 sth.. den went in to the convention centre which has an auditorium.. on the 25th i sat in the first row n on 26th i sat in the 2nd row. (:

Let's start with the first dae.. I went in first den waited for pf they all to reached.. while waiting, we watched a few performanced by the SP dance club.. It was quite cool actualli.. Den after the performances, we have this quiz, n if u ans their qn correctly, u will get a superstar poster with chanel silver n kelly n their signatures! The first qn goes like tis... "How mani food courts does SP have?" Den the one tt tapped the sticker pasted on the stage first will get to ans.. Den i see nobody so they pushed me to tap. So i went up n tapped the sticker. But the ans was rong, coz someone told me 5.. but actualli was 6.. So nvm.. den the 2nd qn goes like tis.. "How old is SP tis year?".. Aww.. defintely i dunno the ans, den suddenly someone called me I turned, it was meihui's bro.. he told me the ans.. meanwhile got quite a few guys making their wae down to the sticker ler.. got one onli a few steps away.. but i see their action so slow so i run up den stone for a second den tap. So its me agn wahahas. Den i sae 51 tis yr. bingo! I was right! So i went up to stage to take the poster. All thanks to mh's bro! (: Den The moment all of us is waiting for has come!!! That's the superstar mini concert by SILVER chanel n kelly!!! First up, was chanel.. She came out and sang two songs... Den followed up is SILVER!!!! Oh mine! She is so chio!!! I missed her n her voice so much!!! She sang two songs as well.. My eyes juz stared at her.. N I cant get it off her! She waved n smiled at me!!! Oh mine! That smile of hers.. is so memerizing.. when she came out, we were all screaming like mad.. ahh.. how i wished tt moment can stop there foreva.. After silver was kelly.. she sang two songs too.. After all three of them had sang.. there was so called a quiz again... All three of them has a qn... Chanel's qn was.. "what's chanel's favourite sport?" Obviously, it was badminton. Silver's qn was.. "What 3rd language has she learned?" Guessed correctly, it was japanese... Kelly's qn was.. erm.. i cant rmb wahahas. there are a few more qns.. but i cant rmb.. Den after the whole concert n quiz.. the three of them was invited to tour round the plaza... den i was following them.. such close contact! =X Den after that we took cab down to mcs.. Den saw them came out... Silver's face was so damn black.. She was kinda vry irritated by sth.. and she kip walking the rong floor so.. its like she is vry ber ce.. Den she mumbled sth to me n pf.. but we cant catch it... Den ytd we asked her y.. den she told us.. (: Den after silver went off... We waited there for star idols to come out.. coz juz nice they hav some shootings tt dae... Den we waited tok crapz... den suddenly.. pf saw MJ! Ya as usual, she is the first to come out! I was so happie! went up to her.. den took some pics.. den walk her down to take cab... (: den we went bac n saw albert n lilian! took pics with him as well.. den went to the radio gate to see the rest... They are gng for K... but mj is not gng coz she is still vry sad over ben's elimination.. DONT BE SAD LER KKS! (: We dden went to J8 to eat n shop for wendy's present.. den went up to the open plaza to crap with yan they all.. Sorry JY! I forgot abt tt event >.< .. Din wear yellow.. nvm.. den we went home after that... (:

Den the 2nd dae! ... I went there quit early.. earlier than i imagine.. n stood there waiting for 1 hr plus.. coz the auditorium is not opened yet.. den waited for liyan to come.. den slack slack slack.. the same old performance in front agn... Den coming to the quiz part.. tis time was to get someone up to sing.. of coz i din went up wahahas. Den after that the superstar concert starts! Chanel was the first agn followed by silver den kelly.. Chanel sang different songs.. but silver n kelly sang the same songs... Silver was so cute tt dae!! Oh mine juz cute. Den after tt the quiz agn... they got tis two qn for silver.. one is wat's her blood type n one is which sp contest has she joined be4... both we noe the ans! but they juz din wanna call us... den until tis 2nd qn the girl ansed rongly.. n all of them pointed to me.. so i went up.. answered correctly! n got the poster from silver!!! (: Den the three of them have tis catwalk.. so fun!! After tt.. they went to tour rnd the plaza agn.. but tis time i din follow juz stand there to wait for them to come bac.. den went to the back door to wait for them to come out.. den when silver was inside the maxi cab.. she backfaced me.. she was juz sitting infront of me.. so i knocked the window.. den she turned bac n looked at us.. n she showed some hand signals saying tt we did vry well todae! Den she smiled at us!! (: SO HIGH!!! Den when we are making our way to the taxi stand we saw a red car juz gng off frm there.. pf saw the carplate n sae tt it was silver's but the policeman said tt it was not tt no. who to believe?! So in the end we still went bac... din saw silver... So tt red car shld be hers.. Den me pf n liyan went to plaza sing to find someone... but in the end we cant find anione.. wahahas.. den in the end we went round finding silver's present -.- wahahas. I was a bad shopper! I hate shopping.. so gt tis pt of time i cnt tahan liaos so we went to the food court n rest... den we tok tok tok.. den went home..

Woohoo! I love tis two daes mann!! SILVER rocks SP concert upside down! ~ (: Dint regret going... wahahas. ^.^

2005-11-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

I'm sick... +.+

Sorry pf if i cnt recover by tmr.. >.< enjoy yrself!! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!!! ^.^ and I promised MJ i wld recover fast by WED!! Tt's her impt dae.. I cnt afford to fall sick!! (: Jia you MJ~!! Ni xing der!! Dont worry too much kks? hees. takkaire everyone! ~

2005-11-23T16:37:00.000+08:00

I'm so damn bloody fuck up by all these that is happening now! -PISSED- Please dun giv me any empty promises agn. Since last time, I thgt u wld hav alr change, but no, i was rong. I hate ppl who give me empty promises. Wats the meaning of the word 'friend'? Can anione tell me? I've enuff of all these, i wld rather not have any friends than to have friends tt doesnt look like friends at all. I am so bloody pissed off now.

I'm sorry pf. I realli hope that u can understand me. I realli cnt make it. I'm realli sorry. I din mean to fly u aeroplane purposely. hais. ya i wld love to see silver n mj why not? I'm realli dying for it. But do i realli have a choice? hais.. Onli thg i hope for now is for yr understanding.... hais...

2005-11-20T19:11:00.000+08:00

After MIA-ing for sooo longg, i have decided to make my post! (: I have forgotten wat has happened tis few daes except for some. Recently, I have fall in love with MIANJIE! (star idol) she is so cuttee n sweet!! But she juz dun wanna admit she is... =.= wahahas. budden aldoh i like her, dat doesnt mean i dun like SILVER ler... Coz she will be always be the BEST in my heart, no matter wat. Becoz of her, so mani unhappie thgs happened. I dun wish to write it here.

And regarding the "CE" thingy, i alr hav enuff of it. This in the first place is not our job aniwae. So dun tok to us abt committment and all those shit. We give u committment n wat do we get? All the stoopid rubbish n crapz in return. We alr respect u by gng to "CE" w/o saying a single thg. And yet u sae we leave uncompleted work for u to do. We did finish everytime we went home kks. And during the first few times, did we hav anythg to do? NO! but we still went. And in the first place, none of us has agreed to be committed, onli u. To have help so far is alr vry kind of us. We are not purposely leaving all the work to u. But we realli have no choice. What can we do? U cant possibly ask us to quit our job juz for sth tt doesnt concern us in the first place. If u tink we wld, den sorry we wun. We have our own limits. Is nt tt I dun wanna help u, is tt i realli have no choice. If u tink liddat is called not committed in CE den i'll quit if tt is the case.

2005-11-08T21:44:00.000+08:00

KEYANG!!!!!

I'm so SORRY I left out ur name!!!!!!!!!

THANKS so much too!!

Aldoh u onli come for awhile LOL..

but i still appreciate it! (: realli!

U're foreva my BESTEST fren!!!!!!

TAKKAIRE!!!! ^.^

2005-11-06T19:26:00.000+08:00

wo hao fan ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-11-04T03:05:00.000+08:00

its all about passion....

2005-11-02T18:17:00.000+08:00

Ytd was the happiest dae of my life!!!!!
I finalli got to see Silver again!!!
Waited for soo longggg... FINALLI!
Went to SF ytd.. woohoo!
actualli onli sae is one episode..
in the end became two episodes.. -.-
Ytd i went to mcs at 9 sth to queue n meet pf..
Then we sat outside the recept n chat..
while waiting for silver to come..
we sat at the taxi stand ther to eat...
den suddenly tis taxi came..
i was trying to figure out who tis girl inside the car is..
when a red car fly past...
den i suddenly jump up n run haas..
coz its silver's car!
den faster run to the carpark..
den saw her..
din sae much...
i passed her the thgs den she went in..
Then me n pf went bac to the recept n sit down..
n we plaeed cards... while more n more ppl came..
den at 2 smth tis particular indian..
came n chase us out lor.. kns...
so no choice we went out the recept to sit..
den suddenly silver smsed me!
at first i dunno who is she... coz she neva sae..
Budden later she told me!
I was so highhhhh at tt time.. almost went crazi LOL.
den lalala~ the recording finish liaos.
den silver smsed wt ask us not to wait for her..
But me pf they all still continued to wait...
Actualli we planned to juz see her leave de..
coz scared she angry or tired ma...
den who noes there is a bunch of ppl following her..
she actualli came out at 1 plus gng to 2 in the morning!
so tts y she asked us not to wait..
but in the end still saw her haas.
den we chatted awhile be4 she went off...
luckily she is not angry... (:
we then took cab home..
when gng home sil smsed me again!
She ask me to keep up the good work in my studies!
I WILL DER!! kees.. thanks so much... ^.^
Den i reached home at abt 2 smth...
Bathed n slept......

2005-11-02T17:23:00.000+08:00

yoyos! i'm bac.
there's so much so much i wanted to sae!
Firstly, i wanna thank baohui meihui mummy jess steph ah gong ah ma qianhui wanzhuang debbie eleen lilian for organising the bday party for me! THANKS!
Secondly, i wanna thank ruizhen kp vann cheryl tania sixian winnie lian for the bday gifts n wishings! THANKS!
Thirdly, i wanna thank everyone who wished me happie bday!!! esp SILVER!~ kees.
This is the most memorable bday i've eva had.
Plae bball in the rain...
Slipped n fall twice...
Spoilt cake but still manage to eat!..
S.H.E PUZZLE! (thx to bh mh hj jess steph qh wz deb el n ll)
BUGS BUNNY! (thx to ah gong n ah ma)
WINNIE THE POOH! (thx to rui n kp)
DOGGIE hp hanger! (thx to vann sixian cheryl n tania)
STAR hp hanger! (thx to lian jie n winnie mei)
RING hp hanger! (thx to my lao gong~steph)
S.H.E POKER CARDS! (thx to my laogong~steph)
S.H.E NEW DRAMA VCD N SOUNDTRACK! (thx to my sis!!!)
(Py ah pa n Cs kor.. I'm still waiting !!! lols. =P)
SILVER'S WISHINGS! (Thanks so much! LOVE YA!)
Plae games to see who eat fries...
Played with someone we noe in bball court...
Punishment is to eat chilli sauce...
Plae bball until whole body pain...
The next dae woke up damn tired...
This is realli the MOST memorable bday i eva had! kees.
A MILLION THANKS GOES OUT TO ALL OF U OUT THERE! can u hear me?! LOL.

2005-10-30T20:51:00.000+08:00

Since u are lazi to tell me, den i would tell you... I dunno why its always euu who make me sad.. make me hurt.. I dunno the reason.. but i noe tt there's smth i wanna tell euu... That's no matter how deep you hurt me... i wld not be angry with you.. Even if I did, my heart would not..

You made me cry.. you made me smile... I dunno how u came into my life.. how u get close to my heart.. for wat i noe is.. i treasue u.. as a friend and as a mei.. No matter how deep u hurt me.. how hard u stabbed me... I would nt bare to leave u..to be angry with u.. coz i noe u din mean to...

Everytime when u are down... i'm glad that u are willing to share with me.. tok to me.. listen to me.. Though we always quarrel, in our hearts, i noe we dun mean it.. Wheneva u are happie, u wld share those happie thgs with me to make me happie.. and everytime when i'm down.. U wld console me.. advice me.. Wheneva i'm rong.. U wld correct me.. enlighten me... Everytime u nids someone's acc.. i wld try me best to make it.. I do all these because i treat u as my mei.. one tt will always be ranked in my heart..

All the joy and fun u hav brought into my life.. will always be part of my mind.. The sadness n anger that u hav inject into me will be diluted by my blood... Sorry if i've hurt u sometimes somehow... I'm realli sorry... I wld not be angry with euu... hurt u animore... for u are always that cute n innocent mei of mine........ and foreva u will be....

2005-10-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

Happy.
Sad.
Excited.
Tired.
Full.
Confused.
Anxious.
Mixed.

I cut my hair! and it was soooo terrible.
Ok i tink i will not elaborate.

2005-10-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

hais.. tings always happen...
firstly is SF cancelled..
secondly is... friendship problem...
I hate these kinds of problem!
So irritating... fan ar!

Firstly is this person ...
then connect to this person ...
then connect to that person ...
then everyone oso link.. hais..
endless network...
Sometimes i realli dunno wat to do...
I'm realli lost... so lost............

2005-10-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

todae went dwn to mcs..
But din went for the recordings...
Neva see silver.. ):
But saw her mama n mei mei instead LOL..
kinda miss them when i saw them haas.
Her mei is still as cute as eva! LOL
Her mama too!
hais.. take taxi all the wae down but din get to see herr..
Miss her so much... haiss..
after exams.. I told sil mama I SURELY will go down der!!
HAIS! ahhh.. silverrr.. u noe how much i miss euu?! ...
I bet u dun...
DEPRESSION...

2005-10-09T01:04:00.000+08:00

GEKK SII WOO LERR!!!
SILVER sang in SUPERFUNKIES TODAE!!!
Argghh!!!
U noe! Silver sang!!!
AND I DIN GO!!!
Wah when receive pf's call,
totally go into depression lor..
stoopid leh! I shld have went!!!
Wat am i doing mann?
ARRRGGH! And todae choong n jian is the special guests!!!
@!$!%#@^$#$^@#^#^
Gonna miss choong for two yrs!!!
And din get to hear him sing!!!!!
perhaps the last time be4 he goes back!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
Siao liaos..
QI SII WO LERRR!!!!

2005-10-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

haiss.. trapped in the world of stress! I'm so stress! history biology social studies a maths e maths physics wateva! ahhh... I nid to score well for the sake of silver!! but wat if i cant! I cnt let her down.. hais.. I'm sorry if i let u down... ):

2005-10-01T01:11:00.000+08:00

SUPERconcert rockss!!! Although not as high as S.H.E one.. But it stil ROCKSSS!!! Coz... GOT SILVER!!!(chio daooo~~) DARRYL!!!(cool daooo~~) JUNYANG!!!(shuai daooo~~) CHANEL!!!(cute daooo~~) WILLIAM!!!(ke ai daooo~~) SEBAS!!!(kawaii daooo~~) CHOONG!!!(charming daooo~~) and etc! All of them rocks!! except for... **** MC made a big board for silver.. one letter one board and we were ONLI holding it when silver sings and behind ppl kip kpkb.. oh pls lorr.. u all oso got stand kks.. we onli hold for tt short while... -.- They sang alot of songs! and the whole concert lasted for ard 3 to 4 hours... so tired now.. *yawnz* gng to dream of my superstars soon.. nitex everyone! ^.^

2005-09-18T12:57:00.000+08:00

Finalli got to see silver!!! ~~ so happie... love her always....

MY ATTITUDE IS VERY VERY BAD NOWADAYS! sorry if i offended ani of euu!! I reali dun mean it... I dunno wat has got into me lately.. So pls bare with me for awhile.. I hope it will gets beta when time goes by.. haiss.. sadd eh.. I realli dun like tis attitude but i juz cant help it.. I tends to get pissed off very easily nowadays.. VERY EASILY .. ahh! I oso dunno why.. mayb nowadays too mani tings happen I cnt cope vry well with my emotions.. dat has a big connection to why I prefer to stay alone! Coz I scared I might indirectly offend anione whom i dun mean to!! ahh! someone help me.. I'll try to control my attitude kks.. giv me some time yea! thanksss... ^.^

to lilian: I realli dunno why u wanna do tt.. u sae tcher dun let.. but tcher let us see ok.. Is u who dun let! Ya! We noe u vry big larr.. is the leader of everythg so wat can we do?! I hav no rights to be angry with u.. U sae u trust me.. ya rite.. tts the wae u call trust? I dun see why.. After the comp when we "finalli" got to see the paper den u come and sae wat "U now noe why I dun let u all see" but pls lo.. u din even noe the results in the first place when u juz got the paper Ok.. I dun mean to use a harsh tone or wat.. but tis is the first time i realli got pissed by someone.. In my WHOLE life ok.. I dun blame u for not letting me see.. but i hate yr attitude.. i hate mine too.. I'm onli trying to vent out my anger.. giv me some time to recover...

to mummy: dun be sad.. U din pissed me off.. is me! my attitude sux .. I noe it myself.. i dun blame u at all.. dun be sad kks.. its not yr fault its mine..

I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-16T23:51:00.000+08:00

My attitude is not vry good nowadays.. Pls dun come n piss me.. i get easily pissed esp. when i am vry tired!... wo hao fan ar! (chanel rox).. ~still tinking of silver.... tml tml tml tml tml tml tml tml ...

2005-09-14T20:52:00.000+08:00

Pain pain pain.. Any part of my bodies with muscles I will feel pain! haiss sadd n tireddz..Miss Silver damn much!! Everytime I see smth tt is related to her like red car.. same brand of car.. superstar..the colour.. I will juz tink of her!! Cant stop tinking! and definitely will not stop tinking hahaas.Silver juz rockss my world mann! (:

Sadz.. Nowadays I prefer to be alone dan with alot of my friends.. I may look lonely U all no nid to scared tt i'm angry with some1 or wat kks.. I love quiet... I wld rather go home alone go out alone quietly than so mani ppl tgt.. Coz sometimes will even be trapped in the middle of the mall the mrt or wat.. not noeing where to go.. I prefer to do it one wae.. tts my wae.. I wld prefer living in a quiet environment than a noisy one.. perhaps I'm used to it nowadays coz I'm always alone at home.. I likes to think.. But i dun likes to share.. I dun wan ppl to noe n there isnt a nid for them to noe..

If u see me alone or walks away suddenly.. dun ask me y kks.. juz let it be.. I wun do anythg foolish hahaas..

2005-09-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

ahh!! lower part of body paralysed liaox! have p.e todae!! though it was fun but! the consequences tasted bad.. hahas.. my whole leg is in agony.. so pain! knee injury came bac again.. and u noe wat? my toe! no skin!! the skin went off and rite to the meat! u can see pus coming out.. and my socks is all stained with BLOOD! Ahh!! i noe tt was disgusting hahass.. but nevertheless, I still went for CO stock checkings.. coz I cant possibly leave all the jobs to puipui (tt was how sharyl called puiying).. So I went to help out.. imagine! my leg was injured.. and i was still carrying big and small instruments frm the commerce room which was situated at one end to special room which was situated at the other end! we hav 40 over instruments to carry n there is onli less than 10 of us.. its like worse than hell.. bleahx! Then after that we went to staff room and ji siao the tchers! LOL.. den we play meihui again! we pour glitters and gave her a big milk bottle! with lots and lots and lots of sweets inside! LOL...den everyone oso kanna glitters.. and some unhappy thgs happened.. dun wish to elaborate hahas.. den after that me lian and mummy went to have dinner with mdm lim and we tok alotx.. den now I'm back! heex..

Why are there so mani cases of deaths happening all over Singapore! its realli saddening to see all these... Though I understand that come and go is a normal routine, I juz cant accept the fact of how mani died each dae! I finalli understand wat is the meaning by life is short.. we can juz go and leave our family and friends here tml.. or the dae of tml or the dae after after tml.. we wld neva noe.. so I tink we should treasure who and wat is around us be4 we regret... Life is realli SHORT... takkaire all my friends out there.. MUZ treasure yr lives orh! its vry the important wor!

I can understand that sometimes bad thgs will happen and affects our mood or even we wld not feel like living animore.. and now i tink tink is vry stupid of us to tink tis wae.. tink! if tt thg realli worth for u to commit suicide or do foolish thgs? I can tell u nothing in this world is beta than our own lives! So we should live in pride and walks the right future path.. God created us in different waes with different tinkings with different faces and different bodies.. we cant possibly tinks the same as everyone esle... So mayb u like someone and someone may hate that someone u like.. and in turn u will hate tt someone who hate that someone u like.. Life is full of connections! will link here link there link until u dunno where it actualli started... So i tink we should try to accpet one another in one wae or another to make peace.. We should not go around criticizing he she they we him her who wat.. juz to satisfy yr own feelings.. U should thgt of how the other side would feel and consider their feelings too be4 u critisize... U cant be so selfish.. Life is neva fair.. U might be jealous of someone becoz she is beta than u or has more friends that u.. Dun make a fuss out of it.. juz rmb tt life is neva fair! OR! u shld not go around criticizing someone who is weaker and lousier than u... juz stand in his/her shoes and capture how he/she will see tis matter.. being jealous is not a crime at all.. but being jealous can lead to thousands of crimes... Cases that developed becoz of jealousy is more than wat yr fingers can count.. Dun sae enemy even friends cant do that... Afterall u all are FRIENDs! friends shld encourage and tell each other abt wat they dun like abt each other and how they see each other instead of juz criticizing one another... Tis is the worst wae to express ur thots and feelings abt tt particular perosn.. If realli serious, a tok is definitely needed... So treasure yr friends and family members! If u haven, start now! I'm sure u will appreciate them one dae.. imagine u are left in the desert w/o anione ard with u ... no food no water no family no friends.............

"Silver" tagged at my blog!! I used it with inverted commas coz I now vry scared of tagboards liaox.. scarely is not her.. den i will be so sadd... n angry! coz someone mao chong her!!
Silver, if its realli u.. I realli wanna thank u for tagging (: Realli appreciate that! And not forgetting that i miss u so much!!! Hope to see u tis sat!!!! ^.^ U muz come wor!! I noe u will.. heheex.. muz takkaire of yr health kks.. Drink more water and sleep earlier! Jia you wor! you muz be damn busi nowadays.. budden always rmb not to neglect yr health kks! keex.. XD

xInxIn signing off at 11.11pm. =P

2005-09-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

Haix... Somethg is tis world is not as complicated as it seems to be.. juz like the 24 ... happy criticizing and telling us who 'she' is... I cant believe that u actualli did that.. how fake can u get mann.. If tis does not happen, I cant believe tis kinda thgs will happen in real life even if someone tell me it wld... I thgt tis kinda thgs onli will happen in drama...

Aniwae, todae went to mdc.. went there actualli was to see silver's recording! BUDDEN! Last min she sae she nt gng liaox.. we were like all sianz 1/2.. So in the end all silver's fans went to shout for chanel instead... She was so chio and cute todae lolx.. we left half wae ... coz sit until buttock vry pain and NO silver aniwae... Miss her so muchh dunno when den can see herr.. sadd.. Silver! hao xiang ni worrrr!!! xiang daooo~~~

2005-09-07T11:58:00.000+08:00

Yoyox! I'm backk.. heehee.. I realise I hav a vry weird habit.. tt is I will fall in love with the TV everytime EOY exams is drawing near.. LOL.. dunno y.. furni ehx.. went to CO ytd.. its has been ages since I last touch my qin.. and my fingers were injured now.. so pain.. type oso got difficulties..Dun tink can go CO tml..

Superstar is finalli finished.. Realli missed all the recordings and stuffs... miss waiting outside the radiogate till 2-3 smth in the morning juz to see her for tt few moments.. miss going early to the reception and crapz with superstars friends.. yupx and to all of u.. u all will be always rmbed! its great noeing all of u.. meet up one dae after exams kk? hehee..Realli miss all those daes... PSS realli makes a great difference in my life.. aldoh it has ended but the superstar journey for all 24 of dem has juz started! Look forward to see all of them on TV again! Esp. SILVER, ah nel, Junyang, William, Darryl, choong, can n Sebas! Miss them so much.. Muz jia you wor!!

Back to myself.. I have deleted the last two posts I have posted.. which means that I have learn to let go.. Yupx.. perhapps nobody realli understand me.. so wat? at least I understand myself.. LOL.. mei since I've alr let go why not u? Juz let it be.. This incident made me realise that actualli crazi ppl tink more n feel more than normal ppl.. though we can appear as happie as crazi each dae.. we dun actualli feel that wae.. rite.. sad case...
Nowadays I am getting weaker n weaker! tends to fall sick vry easily.. I oso dunno why.. but hope I can get beta..

To all those friends I have made during the journey of PSS..
U all are real GREAT! No doubts dat I dun hav any regrets noeing all of u..
Aldoh PSS has ended BUT our friendships did not end yea?
Will miss all of euu dee.. All the best in wateva u do...
-xinxin.

2005-08-13T11:36:00.000+08:00

Recovering from a GREAT depression.. haiss.. Silver is out.. but she didnt shed even one drop of tears! How strong can she be mann.. She is realli my idol.. when she sang hen hao.. she was still smiling n is just like normal performance.. Omg! When i hear her sing I cant control my tears.. the more she smile the more I feel like crying.. She is juz so GREAT.. haiss missed her so much.. was suffering from bad depression ytd.. and still.. there are ppl ard me saeing silver sucks yay she is out.. they were realli sickening lor.. dun wish to mention names ok.. How I wish they cld juz show some liang xin and kip their mouths shut.. Is like ppl alr so sad le.. u still there saeing.. kaoz.. but nevertheless, I've thought thru le.. we shldnt feel sad for her but instead we shld feel happie for her!.. happie tt she wun be stress animore.. n can rest more le.. (= Aldoh she is out of the competition le.. she will always be the best in my heart.. looking forward to see her on stage again.. (= foreva her fan.

Read meihui's blog.. she is worse than me.. suffered from three depression.. I wonder how n where from the earth does the thg bias came abt.. its like.. Alot of problems in this world starts with biasness... haiss I have been thru alot of experiences.. BAD experiences of coz.. n it all starts with bias... da jiex, carmen, luvena, huijuan, my mother, teachers, juniors, silver, hebe, wadeva.. I've tried to learn smth everytime i made a mistake.. this is so far.. the worse i've eva made.. I'm trying to control.. trying to...

2005-08-09T12:29:00.000+08:00

Omg! Ytd's performance was so GREAT!! I mean for the girls hahax..me xiaobao n py n her bro reached mcs at 4.. n den we chat chat with wt jie jie den we went in to the guys performance I sit with dave in the open gallery becoz I'm prepared to siam be4 it ends.. hahax.. I watched the first half of the performance then went out liaox coz I almost fall asleep hahax.. So i went to find keyang they all... Den we chat with sparrow "jie jie" n her friend hahax.. so fun! I took a pic with silver's sister and mother! They are so cute!! Silver's whole family all very cute siax!! shou bu niao hahax..After tt we went in for the girls performance!! So cools! Me meihui keyang sparrow jie jie n silver mama sit in the first row!! We were screaming like mad.. but heard emily mama sae at the back very not high.. I think becoz of smth ba.. dun wish to sae.. But is so fun!! Silver sang until so touching!! I almost cry siax.. I tink i will cry until siaox if she got out next round.. haix.. After the recording we kip waving to her n she kip waving back!! She even giv us a flying kiss siax!! OMG!! We were screaming like mad siax.. After the show end we went to the radio gate and wait for her! It was alr 12 smth liaox.. but me keyang and meihui go n wait.. we wait until 1 smth she still haven come out.. den meihui sae she cnt wait liaox.. so she went home first.. den me n ky continue to wait.. den finalli she came out!!OMG!! she look so sweet n friendly! Her voice Is SOOO SWEET!! She is so chio siax.. We faster went up and get autographs from her!We asked her to sign the calendar we made.. den she sae hmm herm I heard tt someone is printing my calendar ar.. hahax.. SO CUTE!! Den we took pics and shake hands with her!!! Omg! my heart was pumping damn fast lolx.. I even asked her to sign on my T-shirt and she agreed!! Keyang oso!! Omg!! Cant believe it.. she treat her fans like friends lor.. So kawaiiiiiii~~~~~ Den when she finish signing its already going to 3 am liaox.. so me n keyang took cab home.. I went to ky's hse to stay coz too late liaox.. hahax.. I foreva cant forget tis NAN WA de national dae! n tis is the biggest national dae gift I eva get!! Thanks Silver!!~

We saw Jason - He looks quite cute in real life!He say hi to us!, Leon - He waved to me!!, Candyce - She looks damn sweet n cute! She oso waved to us!, Hagen - He is very friendly i can sae hahax.., Derrick - he smile n wave to us!!, Darryl - he kip perspire non-stop lolx, n Silver of coz! hahax... So fun!!

2005-08-07T16:47:00.000+08:00

Recently, I'm kinda very into superstar.. I went for their meet-the-fans sessions which i will not in the past.. go to every of their recordings at mcs regardless of whether i having tests the next dae or whether the recordings end at mid-night.. I will go..I even went all the wae to bishan juz to see them for less than half an hour.. I tink i'm crazi.. it applies to S.H.E too.. spent hundreds over juz to buy the ticket for their concert... I knoe its worth it.. but I have neva ever been so crazi abt idols be4.. perhaps life has been too boring for me? I nid targets.. Life wld not be so interesting w/o superstar n idols I can sae.. The power of stars is unlimited.. I dunno this will carry on for how long.. but for the time being, I noe I wld be very busy chasing them? n I've juz joined JYFC.. meetings meetings n meetings.. tt's the first time I realli n officially joined a fanclub.. actualli there's one for Silver but there's some misunderstandings between two online fc for silver.. I felt very disappointed abt tt too.. dun wish to elaborate.. Now candyce's fans are making a mess at silver's msg board.. N i tink they are getting too much.. If u wld to ask me in the past, I wld not realli go n get tickets for those recordings n go all the wae to the other part of singapore juz to see my idol.. me myself cant believe wat I've done todae.. But I tink everythg is worth it.. n At least I hope that it wun affects my studies...

To Silver~
I may not noe u..
I may not tok to u be4..
I just wanna tell u..
You gave me the strength to move on..
You gave me the strength to tolerate..
You gave me the strength to strive..
You gave me the strength to survive..
You add colours to my life..

You came into my world unwittingly..
You make my world spin rapidly..
You holds the pillar in my life..
And make me stronger than eva..
Perhaps u do not noe..
You are the one that makes me grow..
In the little world of mine..

.......

2005-07-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

Went to mediacorp to see the Project Superstar ytd!! It was so damn cool!!! We reached there at abt 7 sth.. and waited for more than 1 hour be4 we got to get in.. The recording start at 10 sth instead of 8.45! haha..we were so shocked.. but wei le Silver is worth it.. haha.. We saw daryl when we were waiting to go in~!!! he was so shuai!!! omg!!!!The theatre look real small.. but on tv it is actualli quite big though haha.. it was so cool.. Silver is F1 so her fans got to enter first and we were sitting at the end.. Follow by Silver is xinhui F2 den ruth F3 candyce F4 and last but not least kelly F5.. we practice shouting be4 the contestants come out.. when they come out everyone was shouting like hell haha.. SILVER IS SO DAMN SWEET N CHIO N CUTE with her new style!! Omg! I was kinda dian dao by her.. haha.. Each contestant muz sing one fast and one slow song.. n tt is two altogether.. Silver is the first to come out!! She sang shuo ai ni n i forgot the name for another song n got 31! She dance until so cute siax!! Her smile is foreva so sweet n loving haha.. I was screaming like hell.. Xinhui sang dunno wat name de songs haha neva go notice and she got 33.5.. ok not bad la.. She let down her hair tis time.. Ruth sang ai de zhu da ge n dunno wat haha i very forgetful de.. n got 28.5 .. tt was not very good.. she forgot her lines again.. candyce sang hao xin qing and dunno wat lolx.. n she got 30.. I dun like her singing.. and lastly! Kelly sang gu dan ba lei and dunno wat (I realise i onli rmb fast songs de name haha) and got 39.5!! They sae that her condition was not very good that dae because she has throat infection but if they dun sae nobody will noes! haha.. her voice simply rocks siax.. one of the judge comment her until wanna cry coz too good liaox haha.. she so cool siax.. the whole theatre de ppl was screaming like mad.. haha.. It kinda of cool to see them record life coz they got alot of craps to share make us luff until siaox haha.. esp the judges and the host! They were so funni haha..

After the show, we went nearer to the stage n wave to Silver she din see it at first.. den when she is about to walk into the backstage with candyce we shout her name.. den she came out and wave to us siax!!!! With eye contact!!! Omg!! her smile was soooo sweet!! My heart almost melted haha.. den when we went bac to the reception to go home we saw leon n wendy!!! We even took pics with Leon!!!!!!!!!!!! Omg!!! he was so shuai n cute!!!! Love him~!!! haha.. its such a waste that he went out! all becoz of... u all shld noe who! Arrr...! haha.. but nvm.. it was not a wasted trip!! the whole recording ends at ard 11 sth going to twelve wow! haha.. n i still having bio test todae.. but who cares haha.. Then we took cab home!! So happie!! all thanks to wenting for giving me a chance to watch it live!! Love u!! Muackss haha.. U rocks! Silver rocks too!! kekex.. (:

Results :
SILVER - 31
KELLY - 39.5
Xinhui - 33.5
Candyce - 30
Ruth - 28.5

JUN YANG - 39
DERRICK - 38
Weilian - 36
Wei choong - 32.5
Jason - 31

2005-07-21T22:49:00.000+08:00

A life full of miserables -- Juz finish chatting with mummy.. suddenly i felt so relaxed..hope everythg will goes on smoothly...hope that i dun see any more tears being shed.. hope that everythg will be fine..n of coz hope that the same problem doesnt come bac foreva.. hmm like what i said.. making ppl happie is my biggest goal in life.. n to see them happie is the biggest happiness u will receive in life.. ssometimes we muz learn to give in.. no matter how bad one is.. he/she will still have the good side.. it on depends on how u view things.. some things in life are realli complicated.. u nid to look at thgs from different perspectives.. when u tink of how this person feels u oso have to think of wat the other party feel in order not to malign anione.. and the crucial word here is think. Alot of things in life we nid to tink.. n i realli mean think.. if u dun tink u will not noe wat happen or wat consequences some things may hav.. blur is a wae of expressing sth that u do not wish to noe or pretend that u dunno at all.. nothing is free in this world.. U hav to work hard for everythg.. including friendship... so think.

2005-07-17T17:39:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i'm back..with a new skin!! haha but i dun tink there's anythg i wanna sae.. but before i go..i wanna sae that.. SILVER ROCKS!!! Love her to the core!! Oso support Junyang, derrick, chanel, kelly and leon n wish those who are in the revival round next week all the best!! jia you wor!! ^^

2005-07-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

hmm.. sorry juz wanna tell everyone tt nowadays i'm not in the mood of blogging.. so perhaps i will stop blogging for the time being.. sorry for any inconvenience caused.. (:

2005-07-01T21:01:00.000+08:00

Yox.. have been long since i last updated my blog. This post is specially written for Jessica mei haha.. muz feel honoured hor mei? haha.

JESSICA MEI,
I update my blog for the sake of u.. coz i noe i owe u too much le.. i really dunno wat i can do to mi bu all those mistakes I've made n I noe no matter how hard I tried its still the same.. I noe i'm rong.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry not because I think that its yr fault its becoz i tink tt its my fault.. my fault for not being by yr side when u nid me.. my fault for leaving u out during certain times.. my fault for saying i hate u over n over again.. I sincerely hope tt u will forgive me.. Dun eva thgt of losing me coz i will neva thgt of losing u..

Everyone make mistakes life, it doesnt matter. What matters is tt u noe how to get up from where u tink u fall.. So dun blame yrself for everythg when its not ur fault at all... U have the habit of thinking things too complicatedly... Though there's always sth tt are not as simple as we thgt but tt doesnt mean tt all of the smth is not as simple as we think... Some are more than we expect but similarly some are less than we expect... Just like u n mummy.. no one wants to take the first step..what if one dae smth realli happen to one of u? Until then even if u are willing to take the first step thats too late..U will regret for life..n tts life.. Life is so unpredictable, U may die todae, u may survive tml or u may even survive until the next century..but who noes? Onli God noes. You're not God n so u will neva know.. Actualli there's no problems between the both of u at all.. All the problems lies within the both of u.. Like what some others say "The biggest enemy in this world is yrself" N yes is yrself.. U have to pass yr own stage first be4 ppl can pass urs.. even u urself cant how u expect ppl to?.. I bet u noe much much more than what its like having to lose a very close friend, one that u can be with foreva.. Its terrible.. right? Nobody wan this to happen.. not u not me not anyone esle..

U may looked tough but u hav a weak heart inside.. u'll get emotionally hurt easily right?.. U are actualli not as tough as u look.. From the wae u treat old ppl.. the wae u feel for certain things I noe tt U r realli a very caring girl.. U care for yr friends, families n relatives.. u realli care..N i'm sure tt u care alot for this friendship too right? Juz tt u dun show it out.. So why bear the pain within yrself? Let us bear it with u.. when u sae tt she is the first person tt made u think tt ur friendship will last foreva.. I was so touched.. From tt moment onwards i kip telling myself tt I muz made this broken friendship recover back again.. Sometimes I wonder Before we are so close tgt, U all are such good friends but sooner or later when we are beta with u all.. things started to change.. I realli do not want this friendship to end juz like this.. even if u all dun mind.. I mind.. Becoz i will tink tt i'm the cause of everythg.. Aldoh when u glued back a broken window there will still be traces of cracks.. It still stand as a whole.. U nid not feel awkward abt anythg.. U are not in the rong.. so why feel lidtis? The longer u drag the further u all will be from the meeting line.. Is toking realli tt hard? Or if u tink its realli tt hard den u can use sms or even write letters..

Juz like u and me.. without communicating n letting me noe what u tink i've done rong..we'll neva noe tt we have such a big misunderstanding.. perhaps u and her have the same problem n is onli tt u all muz communicate be4 u all noe the problems.. If u all remain silent like tis foreva.. no misunderstandings can be cleared right? Think abt it...

Bygones are bygones dun tink of any bad memories again.. Dun cry over who u have lost, but treasure those who have not leave u and tt applies to friends too.. U are a very sensible girl n I noe u wld understand what I mean.. I realli hope that I can see a broken mirror being glued back again.. I will definitly polish it everyday whether it rains or shines......

2005-06-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

Ahh.. so tired now... juz came back from jess's hse.. now waiting for my hair to dry..

This morning woke up at 8 sth.. coz meeting xiao bao at the mrt station at 10. When i walk out of my house i saw a queen bee still pathetically sticking onto the light den the whole floor is full of dead bees den when i walk to the lift there are so mani bees on the light! Alive!! tt was so scary mann den i run to the tenth floor to take lift haha. The town council was so irresponsible from last night call until tis morning still haven come. Ytd got ten over bees fly into my house den me father and bro use badminton rackets to hit them. while i hide in the toilet lolx.. den we call the police. That was such a scary experience. Onli ours n the 8th floor got attacked! haha..

ok den i went to meet xiao bao den we went to the library to do hmwk.. but in the end we neva do n kanna chase out by the librarian coz no studying allow on weekends haha. So we went to this fashion and bao bao bought two shirts. We den went to KFC for lunch while waiting for steph steph to come hehex.. have a VERY full lunch den we went to bugis to shop for yeeboon and senior's present n my pouch. But in the end we onli bought yb n hl present. So we went all the wae back to tamp to meet meihui to buy pouch. Den we shop shop shop den went home at 5 sth. Then I went to eastpoint to shop myself den ask ke ke yang n jess to join me for dinner. so we went for dinner at the food court. Den me n jess went to jess hse to play bball with wy kor while ky go n wait for her mother. So we played until ten n went home. So tiring!!!!!!~ Yawnzzz...

2005-06-17T20:42:00.000+08:00

BEESS ATTACKED!!!!

2005-06-11T19:24:00.000+08:00

hmm.. eating apple now.. 'an apple a dae keeps the doctor away!' coolz~ haha.. but it's tasteles... no choice.. i wld rather choose the apple than pear.. haha.. it's such a BIG one.. my mouth is too small.. have difficulties eating.. wait ar.. brbz~

I'm back! haha.. was trying to finish my apple juz now while watching a bball match at the court infront of my house.. dunno what i can sae haha.. one team kip shoot cnt go in.. one team keep throw the ball out.. haha.. so far i onli see one team throw in one ball.. dotsss.. haha..

Jess went overseas le wor... to Shanghai haha.. cnt play bball tgt le.. i muz ren until she comes back next wed hahax.. hope i can bare with it.. hmm so sianz todae.. nutting to write about...

Ytd went to play bball with mei jess n mummy.. we played against ngee ann sec.. tt was a nice game? haha.. in the end jess went home earlier den me mummy and mei play 3 on 2 with them.. den we mixed.. its kinda relaxing hahax... actualli i have nutting much to sae... happy duan wu jie!!

2005-06-01T12:32:00.000+08:00

hi everyone! I'm back! As the old me!... You're the best! you can do it! Thumbs up rocks! After this programme i've realise tt there is nutting in tis world tt is impossible.. coz i'm the best and i can do it! haha.. k k enuff of tt.. ya and i've realise that everytime when i update my blog..i'm not in a good mood.. there's a lot of things i feel like blogging.. hmm...

After Jess's incident, I've realised alot of things about friendship. Like what she sae.. if friends dun even have that bit of mutual trust.. is it still call a friendship? I doubt so. But that doesnt mean without that bit of mutual trust we cant be friend ya? Perhaps they din mean to suspect u... If they really suspect u.. and they tell u they didnt.. isnt that worse? at least they told u honestly din they? haha... ren yi shi feng ping lang jin, tui yi bu hai kuo tian kong... hmm i find tis idioms very meaningful dont u tink so too? Friends do quarrel at times.. and they have made the first step in apologising to u.. y notz u juz forgive them.. if they realli dont treat u as friend.. y will they bother to apologise to u leh? haha.. so.. dun tink abt quiting all these stuffs.. juz treat that nothing has happen k? I noe u're very angry... and frankly sae who wun be angry if one were u? ... but like wat i sae.. friends do get angry over one another... perhaps they knew they were rong tis time.. y dont u forgive them once? in return u are giving them a chance to change ya? tts a good deed wor.. be the good one! haha... kk think abt it...

uh-oh my head starts aching again.. this toopid headache has been bothering me for daes.. and panadol is no longer useful.. my mother is bringing me for x stray.. hmm.. tt sounds scary mann.. hope there is nuting in my head...

ya and went for the thumbs up programme last sun at TECC.. it simply rocks! our grp came in second for the competition.. tt was coolz~ learn quite alot from this programme and I'm a high 'I' haha.. quite true huh..

Oh ya and holidays is here! dunno is bad or good coz hmwk stacks from my toe to my head! tt means a lot.. sec 3 holiday is realli like hell haha.. wateva...miss my sec two life! haha...

I dream that i went to S.H.E concert last night! haha and there is this one hour break time and i lost my wae... in the end i took a taxi back but its too late.. i miss part of it.. hahax.. I'm crazi.. met tis very nice physiotherapist ytd.. my new physio! the old one had transferred department.. hmm.. i've promise her to do the exercises at home everydae.. hope i wun break it. haha..

ok.. i suddenly forget i still wanna rite wat... but will come and update again if i rmb.. cyaz~

2005-05-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

I hate tall people!!!!!!!!!!! Tall without an attitude sux even more!!!!! Todae had a GREAT game of basketball with ppl from anglican high... Aldoh in results we lose to them but in spirit and attitude we won them...alot.. n alot... and todae i finalli noe wat is call a real "gentlemen".. a guy in the another team ... shld i call him a guy? he is not gentlemen at all! so wat if he is good at bball? desperately snatching a ball with a girl?! wats tt mann.. i cant accept tis kinda of guy in this bball world! it totally spoils the whole image of bball! I cant believe that tis kinda of player does exist... and he even knock mummy down! right to the ground! aww mann wat a gentlemen is he! and can u believe the impact he made as a 186m tall guy? and sweating all over his body? I realli cant believe it... but aniwae did had a great game todae... so tired now..its like my body breaking into two parts.. tml going to see the doctor abt my legs... gonna get another scolding again.. as u know... i dun even have time to care abt my legs... i cant live w/o bball... but came to think of that.. i cant live w/o my legs too... haiz.. wateva...

todae morning i went to the sports leadership training camp held in tjc... saw yi rong jiex! hahax... den i was split into grp G and i was the onli prss inside... and that is a very funny class hahax.. made me luff until siaox.. hahax.. we are released at ard 12... but the stoopid bus came at 1!! my mother is meeting mrs chua at 11.45! hahax.. i was so anxious to see my report bk and know wat mrs chua sae.. in the end my mother told me that she speaks more than mrs chua haha.. mrs chua saes tt i'm not scared of her! not like others who are scared of her! hahax.. tts funni...got 15 for my class position and 16 for level position.... still okok la....

heard frm jess tt i kip showing attitude to her nowadays... so sorry... din mean to... i was juz joking...how wld i show attitude to my mei de neh... sorry if i've offended u...

now at ce... half dead... half alive... wanna die liaox... bb....

2005-05-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

woohoo! got back all my results... and they sux... U'll see why...

English - 60 (B4)
Chinese - 75.5 (A1)
E maths - 74 (A2)
A maths - 71(A2)
Chemistry - 56 (C5)
Physics - 58 (C5)
Biology - 63.5 (B4)
Combined humans - 74 (A2)
L1R5 - 15

haiz... such lousy results sehx.. but nvm its over.. lets work harder for end-of-year ba... but i doubt i can do beta.. hmm.. so fan all these daes.. dunno becoz of wat... perhaps is becoz of my results ba... and I din work hard for it.. and perhaps becoz of all the things tt happen tis few daes ba... I dun wish to recall aniwae... I dun like my life... I dun like my world... how i wish i was born in Taiwan.. coz onli S.H.E can brighten up my life.. and onli they can get rid of my worries my troubles and bring in colours to my life.. I live for them and I'm willing to die for them.. I'm crazi... dun care abt me..

I love my family my friends my kors my jies my meis but i hate myself. well..for nothing.. I can trust no one in this world... even myself. This alone make it pointless for me to live in this world.. wat i needed were my real life... my true soul.. the world dat belongs to me and onli me myself. But i've none.. not a single one........at all......

2005-05-13T21:45:00.000+08:00

exams are finalli over... but i dun seems to be as excited as the first dae when i'm thinking that how free i will be on the last dae... tok alotz with jess meix juz now.. hmmz... from life to death... from friends to love... sometimes i wonder that life is so short... and I tink that I wld not hav the chance to experience old.. coz i doubt i can live till then.. i tink i will die be4 i reach 30? 40? 50? there's so much on earth for us to think abt and do... but there is nutting on tis earth that can make ppl live foreva... I've been tinking wat if my close ones live me one dae... wat will i do? how wld i feel? I dun wanna tink n I dun wanna noe.. So sometimes i realli feel that it is beta to die be4 they leave me.. my weak heart wun be able to take it... how am i going to survive in this stressful society? how am i gonna accept the fact that everyone has to die one dae? wats the purpose of doing everythg u do in tis world but the final result will still be death? wats the purpose of treasuring everythg in tis world but u have to leave tis world one dae? Is the experience that counts but how many noe will u still rmb on the dae u die? How mani still wanna rmb all those thgs if u have no chance to meet them again? Death, like wat others sae, is just a normal process... everybody will die eventually...one by one i see ppl die each dae.. tts the fear -- the smell of death...

2005-05-08T14:28:00.000+08:00

hi everyone.. I'm gonna die of STRESS soon.. pls dun miss me.. I wan lotz and lotz of money a big car and a big mansion, but pls dun burn any books for me.. I would appreciate that very much.

I have given up hope for my mid yr liaox n I've told my mother too.. Juz nothing can get into my brain nothing.....

2005-05-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

yay! promised my lao po, Debbie to blog de so cnt break my promise hehex..Todae is labour dae! Yay no school for us!

Haizzzz.. Ms Ouh and Mr Goh had leave us last friday. So sadz. They are such nice teachers, but why happy moments always last so short. I wonder. Haizzz.

Had our CE finals last friday. Our school got two champions, one in the lower sec chinese and one in the upper sec chinese, one second in the upper sec chinese and one third in the lower sec higher chinese. Our grp din manage to get in. So sadz, juz because they cant let three of the same schools get in. I cried that dae after seeing the comp. haiz.. how much effort and time we put in. Nvm, I can do nothing but to accept that fate is playing a trick on us.

Speech dae celebration was held last sat. Our seniors came back! Saw DA jiex! still as cute hahax.. Din hav a chance to perform in the performance becoz I am collecting prize.

Went to eat with my family last nite. We went to the oasis. Have a great dinner or can i sae supper hahax.. We went to mustafa after that. It was alr 12 am at that time. Did a very stupid thing, I went to buy some cookies and eat straightaway after i paid. Then when I went out, was kanna stop by the security guard lolx.. Then check here check there waste my time hahax..aniwae i was set free! diaox..

Ok now back to my msg session....

To Ms Ouh: Hi Cher! Thx for yr band and all the efforts u have put in in CO. Thx for all the understandings all this while. U make a great difference in PRSSCO and in PRSS too. U are the best teacher I eva met in PRSS. Though u did not teach us be4, I can see yr patience and the effort u've contributed in teaching yr students. Aldoh u have leave us, i still wanna tell u tt ur spirit will always stay in us and neva will it fade away. I hereby wish u all the best in pursueing yr dream in the future. Good luck...

2005-04-27T16:42:00.000+08:00

I'm wasting my time in the computer lab now. They have been presenting over and over again since 2 something and this is how much time I have wasted. I wonder why everyone was so engaged in playing computer while i'm so sick of it. So thought of updating my blog instead of wasting my time.

I was ask to come and help those who got into the finals to think of questions that can be answered but instead, the teacher was doing everythg. Thus, I have nothing to do but sleep. Todae lessons were boring. I failed my bio and eng. I'm used to it aniwae. Was flunking all my CA3s and indeed all. What a big slacker am i. I don't like to study. I don't like everythg I nid to do in fact I hate them. I'm someone who cannot handle stress. Stress is always the thing I nid overcome be4 everythg if I wanna succeed. But I always fail to. How I wish I am a bird that can fly freely in the sky without any worries. I hate stress. I hate to see ppl feeling stress. Being a student is my biggest regret in life. Tests after tests, exams after exams -- was that what I am hoping for? I doubt so.....

2005-04-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

wah.. since so mani ppl ask me blog.. aiya den i blog lor hahax..lata they kill me... someone like eleen.. hahax..

Firstly I wanted to tell u all sth...tt is... WE GOT GOLD FOR SYF!!!!!!!!! omg i cant believe it.. did u see it?! we got GOLD!!! omg!!! tt was so unbelievable!! we were like all face black black after the competition coz we all thgt tt we will get silver... but... we are rong!! we got GOLD!! u noe NOT bronze NOT silver IS GOLD!!! Ahhhhh!!! lolx.. I'm crazi like hell.. dun try and mess with me hahax..still cant get over the CO fever.... I was shouting like hell everywhere everytime..

Todae is our school sports dae... aww mann tt was tiring.. I am one of the competitors stewards and the same thg... I was shouting like mad... me and steph was like repeating over and over again the same thg... 4 x 400 m relay c boys and c gurls pls report... 400m b boys pls procceed to the competitors stewards now.. or wat so eva... but aniwae tt was fun too... hahax.. our class din get the top three for the class cheers.. but aniwae they tried their best... 3 cheers for 3/8!! Jaguar got the overall champion todae.. congrats to them!..

Went to long john to eat lunch den went back to sch for cep.. tired like hell.. slp on the cupboard.. become worst when i woke up here pain there pain lolx.. den went to disturb mummy they all do lit.. was half awake.. and eleen jiex is pulling me here and there......debbie is so cuteeee hahax... still as cute as eva.. it seems like i have not seen her for years.. hahax

Todae happy and sad things happen/.. jess cried... qianhui cried... both becoz of different thgs.. but aniwae hope tt they are alrite now.... todae we were addicted to isketch haha.. it was damn fun... it is like we have to guess wat each other draw... damn cool ahahx but we kip on play cheat hahax...

To eleen jiex: Next time dun cry le orh... so scary wor.. hahax.. next time anythg u dun wan can sae out ma.. y nid to cry lehx? hehex.. smile..

To jess meix: Dun worry abt yr kor.. he will be ok..i promised ok.. hehex.. dun cry le.. tears are precious.. he wun wan u to cry oso isnt it? dun make his feel even badder ok.. good gurl...

To qianhui meix: Dun be sad le.. there is always next year rite? hahax.. toking or not toking is still the effort tt counts... u are still part of tt team wor... not like us.. din even get in rite? so cheer up!

woohoo! juz like wat ah gong saes... there are alot of things in tis world tt we cnt control.. so dun tink too much k all my friends... tears cant solve anythg.. but it will onli make u dehydrate ... so why torture yrself? not onli tt after torturing the problem is still ther.. so wats the use rite? hehex.. so smile juz like us.. juz enjoy everydae u have.. wun tt be a beta thg to do? hahax... kkx i will stop here le... bb nitex everyone...

2005-04-02T19:17:00.000+08:00

Disappointed... so? wats the point of being disappointed? Being disappointed can solve anythg? Why muz u become liddat... It's realli hurting to see u like tis.. No matter how much i trust u at first.. u will let me down in the end.. I dun hear or noe all these.. I can pretend tt nutting has happened in front of u.. coz i dun wanna make u feel tt ppl'll look down on u if they know.. and dun wan u to feel left out among yr friends.. but do u noe how much i do care? If todae u are juz an ordinary person to me.. I'll juz let it be.. but u're not... not onli me.. all of us do care.. And seeing u becoming liddat.. I noe it is rong.. but wat can i do? severe ties with u? I dun wan.. becoz i noe u'll change... I noe u'll regret.. I believe tt u will change.. for the sake of us.. I dun wan to let u noe how i realli feel coz i wanna tell u tt no matter wat.. we will still be there for u.. U can do wateva u wan.. u can show yr attitude to me or wat.. it doesnt matter.. and I dun mind at all.. But becoz u ARE my friend so I dun wanna see u like tt.. I dun wanna accept all these so called "facts" to me.. I wun change my attitude towards u.. I wun do anythg to change u.. but do U noe my fear of u getting beaten up one dae? .. Do u noe the pain i have to suffered worrying for u? Do u noe tt not onli me in tis world tt realli care for u? How about yr family? u're still young.. do u tink it is worth it.. I dunno why perhaps we have different pt of view.. but do u noe tt its for life! once u get addicted to it it will be for LIFE! and i mean LIFE! For the sake of us cant u juz lead a normal life? get away from all those dirty things.. I wun change my attitude towards u becoz of tis.. I wun do anythg or say anythg to force u... But all I wanted is U to stay away from all these.. I dun wanna see any of my friends to touch those things.. be it a guy or a gal.. hope tt u'll make my wish come true....

2005-03-14T18:57:00.000+08:00

woohoo! I'm back..finalli..haha.. My long awaited holiday is finalli here! But i was thinking with all those co camp and practices izzit realli a holiday? I doubt it is.. But nvm at least I did enjoyed myself at the sec 3 camp!! It was a real success!! I love it!! The instructors the place the games and everythg!! It's the most fun camp i've ever been to!!

Fridae

Todae is the dae where all our effort is paid off.. todae is the dateline for our ce projects.. and all of us was excused from lessons to do the final touch-ups.. we are the first grp to finish it.. so we went to help other grps.. we are competing against each other of the same school so we noe tt our chance of getting into the final is very low.. but aniwae we tried our best.. The 1 o'clock bell finalli rang.. we carried all our projects to the old foyer prepared to be sent to nanyang jc.. let the principal viewed and we went off.. waiting for the results to be out on April 15.. den we all went home and take a nap.. to gain energy for the sec 3 camp tonight.. coz we stay overnight in school last nite and nobody slept.. we meet 6. 45 at the tamp mrt station and went to school together.. everyone went in the morning onli we and the npcc went tonight.. we took a school bus there.. and by the time we reached there was around 8 sth.. everyone gathered at the hall there.. the campsite was damn nice.. we sleep in very special huts and the toilets there were so clean.. we missed kayaking and rock climbing.. tt is so wasted!.. But aniwae i did enjoyed myself very much!! we played kidnapped.. is like one person from each grp is being locked up in a place then we have to solve clues to get the keys.. to unlocked him..then after tt i met my grp instructor, ken. Den we went for supper.. and wash up then sleep.. the first nite was not very good.. the hut opposite us was damn noisy they kip singing then dun wanna slp.. then one of our classmate went to complain thrice but no use.. when the instructor came the kip quiet but once they go they start again.. den i kept waking up.. so bullshit..

Saturday

We woke up at 6.30 todae.. washed up.. and report to the hall at 7.45...to be continued...

2005-02-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

hi.. i'm back to blog... juz read someone's blog n feel so touched... oso feel like writing a short note to my friends whom i've neglected...

To Chiew Hong(my best buddy): Hey buddy! long time no see le.. how's life.. still ok? will try to go to ah mi hse as much as I can.. Do work hard yea? All the best.. buddy foreva~

To Stephanie lao gong: Tears is never a solution to anythg.. thx for being there when I need you.. never regretted noeing a frenz like u.. memoriess lastt forevaa`

To Chun Siang kor: U are the best kor i eva had.. thx for everythg u've done for me.. thx for helping me all this while.. neva regretted having a kor like u.. sorry for not being a good meix.. thx for tolerating me when I am so troublesome.. thx for being so nice to me even though i din play my part as a mei.. thx for everythg n everythg.. U r such a nice kor n frenz I eva had.. love u kor! All the best...

To Hui Lin jiex: Da jiex! U r a jiex tt i will neva forget.. u've added colours n liveliness to my life n brought me unlimited happiness during the times being with u.. thx for being there when i nid u.. thx for consoling me when i'm down.. thx for caring for me when i am not feeling well.. thx for all the happiness that u hav brought to me.. U've leave the school..n i'll miss u lotz.. love u jiex! Take care n good luck...

To Carmen jiex: U're one of the best jiex i eva had.. Aldoh till now i still dunno much abt u.. but i noe tt u are a very nice jiex.. thx for all yr care n concern all these while n sorry for everythg tt i've done in the past which annoys u.. aldoh we dun tok so often now.. i still wanna tell u tt i always care abt u.. good luck n all the best to yr o levels tis yr..

To Meihui meix: U're one of the cutest meix i eva noe.. aldoh sometimes i am quite pissed off by yr heck care attitude, i still wanna tell u tt u are one of the best meix i eva had... u brought luffters n joy to my life n is there for me when i am down.. n is ther to cheer me up when i feel sad.. i'm sorry if i have not been a good jiex all this while.. but hope we can be jiex meix foreva!~ Stay crazi~

To keyang meix: U're the craziest lamest person i eva met! lolx.. wow 8 years of friendship.. i've seen how u change from a quiet sensible gurl in the past to a crazy lame childish gurl todae.. it is amazing i can sae.. haha thx for being a good frenz n being with me thru my ups n downs.. miss ur quiet personalities.. the memories i had with u will always remains in my heart n neva will it fade away.. thank you gurl..

To Winnie meix: Hi meix! (soft soft) haha now since tt u have lost yr interest we seldom chat nowadays.. perhaps tt we have lost 'tt' common topic le.. haha.. but aniwae still share alot of good memories with u n i'll always treasure our relationship.. thx for everythg.. All the best...

To Magdalene mummy, RuiBing jiex, Lian Jiex, PeiBoon Nanny, Meizhen alama: Thankx for once being my closest frenz .. aldoh we went different directions n to different classes, I still treasure tis friendship among the six of us.. thx for being ther once when i nid u all.. u all bring good memoriez to my secondary life..n tose memories last foreva.. rocks on my fren.. may our friendship last foreva...~

To Jessica meix, Debbie lao po, Eleen Jiex, Hui Juan mummy and my dear niece Sharyl: It's my pleasure to noe such a wonderful group of juniors like all of u.. thx for adding colours to my life n making my life interesting.. work hard my gurls.. all the best to yr streaming this yr.. dun disappoint me wor.. Gambate!

To the rest of my jies, meis n kors: Thx for being there when i nid u all.. esp luv jiex, ting meix, qh meix, wy korx, hy kor.. u all brightens up my world.. n neva eva did i regret noeing each n everyone of u.. good luck for streaming for my meis who are in sec 2s tis yr.. n all the best to my kors n jies who have graduated n of coz to those who are in sec 3s tis yr.. Jiex+meix Korx+meix= foreva~

To the rest of my friends: My life wun be so interesting w/o the presence of all of u.. u all make a difference to my life n i realli appreciate it.. thank you my fren.. All the best...

2005-02-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

Made a fool out of ourselves.. -the liuqiners. Oh mine.. tt was a damn terrible performance.. hope it wld be beta tml.. May GOD bless us.. -the liuqiners.

2005-02-20T00:52:00.000+08:00

Todae I'm not acting like myself.. I dunno wat has gone into me.. I cant luff.. I cant smile.. Even how lame n funni the jokes are I juz cant luff! I dunno why.. I want to luff but sth just stop me from doing so.. I dunno wat is tt.. Looking at sharyl they all.. I came to realised how I used to be last time.. I used to be such a noisy n talkative character in tis world..But now it's different.. Everyone was surprised by my reactions.. even myself.. Perhaps this change is affected by my friends who used to scold me childish or very noisy or wateva.. I was trying very hard to change.. hav i succeed? I dunno. The mature side of me used to be hiding inside me..deep in.. but now? Trying to run around like crazi is a normal thg for me to do.. but now when i do tt i will feel very uneasy.. i'll feel like everyone is watching me thinking tt i am very childish.. But infront of my friends i hav to put on the childish side of me.. becoz even myself cant accept it.. trying to find back the cheerful side of me.. can i?...

2005-02-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

Wosh! It has been daes since i last blogged. was too sick n tired n busi to do tt.. having a chinese test tml.. heard it was tough.. gonna die.. but aniwae i will juz try my best.. quite a lot of thgs happen tis past few daes.. but nutting interesting lolx.. oh ya i'm short of time! I nid time very badly.. who can giv it to me? I nid time to do these to do that.. but yet one dae is so short.. how am i gonna live.. i nid time to eat nid time to sleep nid time to study nid time to bath nid time to play nid time to chat nid time for cca.. Everythg nid time! How i wished i can hav more time.. but who can giv me ne.. after i fall sick i kip having headache everydae.. is tt a hou yi zheng? lolx.. Arrgghh.. getting so stressed up.. I hate tis kinda of feeling it sucks.. it totally sucks lor.. haix.. why muz we have tests n exams.. why muz we study? why muz we do this do tt n the final result is death?.. Realli cant understand y God made us this wae.. I'm realli so sick abt my life everydae wake up study eat sleep wake up study eat sleep.. it is so boring! so boring! ahhhh! I'm gonna burst one dae.. todae was a damn tiring dae becoz of co.. still the same old sentence my instrument sucks.. I love co but i hate to play my instrument can someone help me? bleahx.. wateva.. there's nutting i can do to it.. haix.. onli can sae i'm so unlucky to get tt one.. sumtimes i realli get so sick of my life tt i feel lik dieing.. but my dreams kip me going.. thanks! hahax.. kk i gtg le.. xinxin signing off.. bye